I was going to talk about this on my twitter circle.. but i think it's an important matter.. it's a bit of a long thread so i'll understand if you don't want to read it, a TLDR will be added at the end of it.

So.. Yeah, chest pains, verbal/mental abuse, and more..

The bad day was when Argentina playing football.. First, we lost tv signal.. she was rushing and pressuring my to find it online, but there weren't streams online, just on tv or paid services, the way she was pressuring me and watching me was giving me anxiety and stressing me..

I couldn't find one, but luckily the TV signal returned, and we watched the match together.
While we watched, she said why i'm so "Bitter" (Amargado/mala onda, lack of emotion, negative?)
I just said "No soy amargado.." (I'm not bitter..)
I really can't show that much emotion or get too anxious because it would give me chest pain.. as soon as i got up.. she said "TE QUEDAS ACA" (YOU STAY HERE) the way she said it, it gave me a slight of chest pain.. so i ignored her and went to my room and watched the match by myself.. And the final moments were intense.

Ten extra minutes and a tie at the final shot! then 30 minutes of suffering, and then penalties, but Argentina won! And i was really happy and too excited, all that stress and emotion making my heart race and i had to rest immediately.. so i had to lie downon my bed and had meds.. but my mom called me, so i got up struggling and holding my chest, and asked for me to go buy some more alcohol.. which.. i couldn't, so i asked my brother if he could go, so he went, my mother gave me an angry look.. and then i went to lay down again..

a minute later, she yelled at me to get up "VENI PARA ACA/ COME HERE NOW"
i got up asked her to let me rest, i'm really hurting.. i couldn't breathe well
she said that she's in even more pain and that she bares it, that she doens't complain about it.. that i'm so fragile and weak

she said that she's in even more pain and that she bares it, that she doens't complain about it
and then, said that i get annoyed everytime she asks to go buy alcohol, that "I don't let her"
and said that i'm being unfair to her, that the money i give her isn't enough..

Since i'm the only income of money.. from my comms.. everything i earn i have to give it to her.. but she wastes most of it buying alcohol.. and that isn't cheap, that day she bought like 9 bottles and was way too drunk.
I.. i give her all my money.. i'm obedient.. i help.. what else do you want from me..?
she said so many things to make me feel more down, that if i have food she makes it, that if there's toilet paper she buys it, that she "takes care of me" (you're making my heart burn and my chest going to explode talking to me like this, you're not caring of me at all)

And the classic.. "I gave you life and raised you" You were verbally abusive always.. Dad was the loving and caring one... and... this year.. i lost him..

i held onto my chest and couldn't do much, i wanted to make the pain stop and was just feeling horrible, so i said "it hurts... i need to rest.." and immediately left onto my bed.. had a few more meds... and then... i cried... i stuffed my face onto not one, but two pillows so no one could hear me.. i cried while my chest was in pain.. i cried a lot until i calmed down... and then passed out.. and woke up 4 hours later..

the only comfort i got was from a friend and my BF and some from my brother (not physical comfort tho)
he said "your mother is an alcoholic ungrateful bitch, and stop crying, don't give her much mind" He agrees that she's alcoholic and wastes a lot of money on it...

Nowadays.. she's rushing me to get her more money.. if she didn't waste it we wouldn't be in such a needy and rough situation..
Today.. my pc stopped working and no longer turns on.. and maybe soon.. my laptop will too.

So i'm in a bit of your help... if you could help me a little.. just a little, i would really appreciate it.. i can't draw much since my laptop would overheat and break.. and i don't want that..
My paypal is https://paypal.me/LuisTheYamper and my ko-fi.. https://ko-fi.com/luistheyamper

Every little bit counts.. thank you from the deepest of my heart if you took the time to read..

TL:DR: Mom wastes all the money i give her and treats me terribly.. pressuring me.. mentally and verbally abuses me giving me stress and anxiety.. making my chest hurt.. my pc broke and maybe my laptop will soon too.. so i will lose my only way of income.