Just a personal thing feel free to ignore. I kissed death on more than one occasion, unveiled liars, stood in court against someone who committed homicide, fought the law that took action too far...lost friends in a club shooting...fought for my hard headed beliefs and most importantly. Living for me. Without compromise and comparison. Just existing and content with that alone.

I know I don't have it yet and always seeking. But I feel I finally am making myself a home.

I know I seek comfort in unsavory folk.
Probably because I myself am not the sweetest treat in the shop.
However the biggest lesson I learned this year. Is simply how to live. For me. Unapologetically cutting off those who refuse to actually grow and have abused me for their own entertainment.

I pity those that can't move on after the fact I did. However at the same time. I learned it is not my responsibility to stick around someone who will not at least attempt to not hurt others. For a greedy gain. An obsession if you will.

I'm not a trophy to be obtained but a soul to be respected and grow further with someone who shines light in parts of my soul that no longer glow.

I think this is what freedom...like real freedom feels like. As raw as genuine curiosity.

That's the lesson I learned this year.
I wouldn't change it for the world. And can't be grateful enough to still be alive and experience this. May next year come with a new lesson I can carry with me now I am finally allowing myself to be free.