I am nearing the end of my rope. I've had to pay for things more than what I earn. my job at panda express has only allowed me to work one day a week currently, I feel my manager is trying to get rid of me. my gf's expensive taste's has put a great toll on me. she pitch's in every here and there but I know she wants to give up on me, saying rude things to me such as "your holding me back" and she won't talk to my family, practically alienated them even though my sister got her Christmas gifts and recently tickets for me and her to go see Jeff Dunham "still not canceled". I've done everything I can for her. Worked at a fast food job with a bachelor's degree in corporates communication, I was only hired because of my height. I've neglected myself greatly by putting my dreams on hold, dreams I may never get to achieve, yet she as achieved hers greatly with getting a promotion for a salary raise and wants me to still pay half, while I have struggled to get an entry level job with no experience, but company's nowadays want someone with a master's degree for below what they worked so hard to earn their diploma.

I occasionally remind her I am struggling greatly now that my money is getting lower than what I was hoping it would be. lyft has helped me keep afloat, but my expense's have not helped. I think if/when we break up I might as well go crash at my mom's place, my older brother has to do the same because he went through something similar but he went through hell last year when some jack ass started a fire and caused a small explosion. My brother's studio didn't catch on fire e but there are cracks in the foundation making it unstable. along with is blood clot and shocks that caused him to stay in the hospital through thanksgiving. His studio is blue dog ceramic studio ( based off our favorite blue healer that passed away a long time ago but meant a lot to him and me.
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He is living with my mom after his ex refused to help him recover because she didn't want to care for him nor cook soup or anything of the matter, after getting a pace maker when he was dead to the world for 15 min's.

If things don't work out I may have to live with my mom to restart my life or find friends who can take me in till I get my feet back on.


I've struggled greatly getting another job. I have experience helping my mom flip a house my grandma left to rent it. I've tried greatly to do lyft but gas expense's have not been kind to me. I would/could have gone to college again but I feared I would be in the same situation only with less income for another piece of paper that won't do anything for me.

I have been with my gf for 8 yrs, supported her for 3 by keeping a shitty fast food job just to support her, dealt with shitty managers here and there. I ask for so little, all I ask for her is to watch movies and shows with me, play video games like we used to, and please just talk to my mom about your frustrations with her, she doesn't know what she did, she has asked me what did I do to your gf to make her so mad at me. Now I feel she will end up like those women that demand so much for a house, wants kids, just to dump me, claim false accusations against me for the icing on top.

I am more tired these day's but I can rarely sleep, I am only in peace when I am asleep. I try to apply, create tailored resume's to stand out more, job boards and websites lately seem to be scam artist that want your money's without offering anything in return