So today is my birthday I'm turning 31. I've learned a lot about myself recently and I found out I have trouble opening up and I apparently put walls around myself sometimes even those close to me.

My dad passed away last year October 7th 2020 I've had to celebrate my first Halloween Thanksgiving and Christmas without him, now I will be celebrating my birthday without him.

Despite some headaches he's giving me in the past he's done a lot for me and I wouldn't trade him for any other dad in the world. I still miss him. I'm writing this year because I can't seem to tell others on other Discord chat rooms about my struggles and my loss.

This year I'm going to work on opening up more to others that I am close to and semi close to.

I hope everyone's year in 2021 is going better than last year