I know January is almost over but I still feel compelled to make a post about it since things have changed quite a bit on my end and I wanna address them a lil just to sooth the rattling in my brain hahha.

Without going into too much detail, i've had a slew of massive irl issues slamming into me one after the other that has made working, socializing, and generally surviving harder and harder with each passing day. I'm basically stuck in a situation with no real immediate solution except to make big changes to my outlook and how I go about things from here on out. I don't have much experience with where i'm at right now, so i've been struggling with figuring out a balance for everything again. I'm sure people who have followed me for a while have noticed how much less active I am in most spaces these days, and commissioners probably absolutely noticed how much longer it takes me to get through a queue :"") I've been increasingly embarrassed at how it takes me 2-3 months to get through a small queue these days and am desperately working to change that. That's the main reason i'm planning on making YCHs (both big and small) a regular part of what I offer. They give me more wiggle room and they're a good way for me to experiment with different styles and stuff without feeling like i'm straying "too far" from "my brand" and blah blah. Which is something else im shedding myself of this year. I like sharing my art with people (in all it's forms) and relegating myself to treating myself like a company that has a Content Quota to meet has made my relationship with being seen as an artist....extremely...unsavory. lol. SO im working through that as well. Generally, I'm just trying to be easier on myself. Tired of being on that Grind™ and want to actually enjoy being someone people want to give money to so I can draw their characters for them. I want to put MORE of MYSELF into the art that I do. For others and myself. I've spent too much time trying to "keep up" with everyone else, even when the way they do things doesn't work out for me. Running a race I didn't even want to be a part of in the first place, if that makes sense fhgsdfg.

So, thank you. For everyone's patience. For supporting me through everything. It doesn't matter how much or how little. Through commissions or tipping or donating or whatever. I don't think i'll ever have enough way to express my gratitude of people who've supported me for years and continue to do so, and for all my friends who've stuck by me despite my massive gaps in communication and general being around and for being so understanding. Thank you guys for supporting me as a person and an artist while I figure out how to navigate this part of my life from now on. I'm dedicating 2023 to getting back on my feet and re-learning how to make all of this work again, but in a way that is more suited to me and benefits my mental health a bit more. I'm gonna go on a bit of an uploading spree of some stuff from the last 2 years i've had lying around. I'm also going to be opening for a batch of chibi commissions later around 7-8pm my time (MST) so if you're interested, keep an eye out around then!

Thank y'all for everything. Here's to a new year of me kicking ass instead of getting my ass kicked!! It's MY TURN!!!!!!!!!!! 👊🏽 💥