FA+
Shop
Reclaiming the Creative Drive And Self-Care
3 years ago
General
Khairete,
Firstly, I would like to apologize for both the lateness of this particular journal, and the general lack of activity following August. So I'll start there.
Megaplex went well...for the most part, I had prioritized socializing with the likes of
VixyyFox, 
Onic, 
Vrghr, 
Walt46, 
Kiyofox and met 
HelixTheFallen in the flesh for the first time; over attending events (although I still made it to a good few of them.)
I was accompanied by
Kodiak34, a fellow fur who was local to the area, he had not been aware of the con before hand, so this had been his first. My other companion, 
stinkyonmain, was no stranger to them on the other hand. They too were excellent company, even if things got a bit rowdy from time to time.
Despite having no project to work on and just being there to unwind, I couldn't help but feel kind of uncomfortable this year and it did not go unnoticed. I could not help but wonder if the sun was beginning to set on my yearly convention excursions.
I feel like I was very rude and ungracious towards the con staff as well, which is unbecoming to say the least.
Either way, with one year drawing to a close and another dawning, there is a always a time for new beginnings. New chances to improve upon my short comings and continue to take steps nearer to living a virtuous life.
I'm still hard at writing, still figuring out how best to tackle the projects ahead and see them realized as best I am able to. I've made good progress on the chapter, though I've given it a rest to work on a related, albeit smaller piece. I shall not say what the specifics are regarding it for now. Needless to say, working on both has been a practice in trying to break my habit of overthinking and stressing myself out instead of just enjoying the process.
I'm also going to take time for myself. To reintroduce meditation into my daily practice and reach out to a therapist or two. It's certainly no exaggeration.
That's all for now, my readers. Again, my apologies for taking so long to get this written up and posted. With luck, I'll have some more pieces and uploaded in the near future, when they've had the proper time and care, and perhaps some commissioned art to accompany them.
Firstly, I would like to apologize for both the lateness of this particular journal, and the general lack of activity following August. So I'll start there.
Megaplex went well...for the most part, I had prioritized socializing with the likes of
VixyyFox, 
Onic, 
Vrghr, 
Walt46, 
Kiyofox and met 
HelixTheFallen in the flesh for the first time; over attending events (although I still made it to a good few of them.)I was accompanied by
Kodiak34, a fellow fur who was local to the area, he had not been aware of the con before hand, so this had been his first. My other companion, 
stinkyonmain, was no stranger to them on the other hand. They too were excellent company, even if things got a bit rowdy from time to time. Despite having no project to work on and just being there to unwind, I couldn't help but feel kind of uncomfortable this year and it did not go unnoticed. I could not help but wonder if the sun was beginning to set on my yearly convention excursions.
I feel like I was very rude and ungracious towards the con staff as well, which is unbecoming to say the least.
Either way, with one year drawing to a close and another dawning, there is a always a time for new beginnings. New chances to improve upon my short comings and continue to take steps nearer to living a virtuous life.
I'm still hard at writing, still figuring out how best to tackle the projects ahead and see them realized as best I am able to. I've made good progress on the chapter, though I've given it a rest to work on a related, albeit smaller piece. I shall not say what the specifics are regarding it for now. Needless to say, working on both has been a practice in trying to break my habit of overthinking and stressing myself out instead of just enjoying the process.
I'm also going to take time for myself. To reintroduce meditation into my daily practice and reach out to a therapist or two. It's certainly no exaggeration.
That's all for now, my readers. Again, my apologies for taking so long to get this written up and posted. With luck, I'll have some more pieces and uploaded in the near future, when they've had the proper time and care, and perhaps some commissioned art to accompany them.
I hope you are able to improve your routine and lift your mental state into the "comfortable" zone.
I do hope you are able to make it to con this year. I think it was great getting to hang out with you. :)
I hope for the best as well, even though I was saying the same at the start of last year and things proceeded not to change or get worse. At least I'm opting to seek professional help this time and get back into therapy.
As to the con, I am not sure at present. But with luck, I would like to make it and see you all again. It's something I look forward to each year and like most things, I am treating these conventions as if each one may be my last.
Yep, self care is important.
There is also a time to to just shut up and write.
My recent writing sessions have been tentative, but the most enjoyable they have been in a while, seems like a good sign.
Writing... you are writing and that's what counts. I spent years doing other things before discovering what I was meant to do. Watching you reminds me of this. Always be faithful to yourself, an don't listen to those who are so negative on things you do.
Vix
As I've been in the opposite situation a few times, and it's lead to some rather nasty fights and falling outs. Sometimes the fault seems to lie solely on me, other times with the former company I chose to keep, and sometimes both.
If I may admit, reading this left me kind of speechless, and I'm still not quite sure how to properly respond after days of processing it all. But I think I understand what you're getting at, Vixyy.
Writing at least, involves less to worry about, the biggest challenge for me is learning to stop myself from treating it like work, and remind myself to focus on getting the words down. It's nice to be able to enjoy the creative process again.
Living authentically is important, I agree, but sometimes its good to listen to criticism once in awhile, if it is not unfounded.
Lately my brain has been elsewhere. I need to get back to writing 'stuff'. It's much too easy to goof off, right?
Vix