Thank you for all that responded yesterdays, it's actually given me quite a bit of insight to a lot of things, and how others may do things and respond one way or another. But really one answer stood out, and even then it was one word from that answer: Empath.

An empath is defined as someone who not only empathizes more strongly with others, but almost takes on or mirrors those emotions. Empaths are basically emotional sponges, which explains why I seem to have an uncanny ability to be liked, and to be why others constantly want me for an ear to listen to. I sort of thought everyone else just sucked at empathy, but I might have been uncanny good at it... or rather, I lack the defenses that allow other to not have others overwhelm them with emotional weight. I have been caught multiple times just utterly burnt out by people dumping themselves on me uvu.

Before I go further need to state clearly that an empath is not a term used in science or in psychology proper and doesn't seem to be any scientific proof of empaths actually existing. That's fine: science is meant to be as one to one textbook to reality, and the human mind is incredibly chaotic goobly gook different to person to person. So without hard proof of something best you could come up with is ideas or patterns that are at best a useful metaphor. And since I have always been fascinated by memetics/meme theory (that certain ideas act the way viruses spread and mutate and are subject to natural selection) which I'm also fine being called pseudoscience (cool vibe, sort of describes reality, ...proof tho?) I'm more than comfortable aligning myself with such ideas if there is value to be had there.

And jeez there is some value there; I cannot begin to emphasis (heh) how eye opening even doing basic research on it has been as to describe a huge amount of my quirks, both positive and negative, as well as my pitfalls and just like... how I operate. Biggest thing is just how much sheer alone time I require to just exist, apparently a very common thing among self-described empaths. And with this word I see now now that: I have a thread to categorize this part of me, that there are others like me, and that there are guides and strategies I can now look up to deal with all of this.

Speaking of which: Discord and Telegram is now "ask first plz" (I much preferred a formal note, and random rp stuff was never appealing). I may have to also cut down a bit always trying to be there for certain people. I can't help everyone, and I have been neglecting taking care of me while doing so.

Beyond that yeah this has been pretty eye opening, I genuinely believed that for the most part that people took on a bit of the emotions of people that were interacting with, and it wasn't a me thing.

Jeez, all this from a Garfield comic that's been stuck in my head for way to long.