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Delete Later, but Where I've Really Been
2 years ago
Fuck it, I'm a teacher. The whole reason my account went dark so fast is that I got a teaching position and had to upend my life in order to chase it. They are also very strict with us saying that you can absolutely get fired if your private life becomes public knowledge in a way that could embarrass the school and I every so often cold sweat nightmare myself about all the art I've made over the years surfacing somehow and getting my ass fired. But also, when I initially made this account I had just figured out that I'm some flavor of queer and moved far from home with a girlfriend that didn't work out.
I clawed my way out of that situation then moved back closer to home to a SHITTY teaching position that nearly killed me, then scrambled to get to my current place. I like where I work now, but my boss is bad at discipline and that makes my job unnecessarily stressful.
I'm worried about the state of education and how the US is trying to legislate queer people out of existence. I feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells. I can't be out at work, so I'm just roaming around visibly not-conservative waiting for the other shoe to drop.
This account is like, nobody knows this one. Not even my best irl friends know about my secret horny furry art account, (they know I drew art for furries, but I don't think they've ever seen my art like this) and because of what I do for work, I get really paranoid about somebody somehow finding this account and tying it to me and ruining my life. This makes it really hard for me to crosspost anything, because of the fear™️ that it will get tied back to me, partially because when I was in high school a classmate stalked me online and found ALL of my social media accounts then showed up somewhere I had said I would be, despite me not saying a specific place.
But, I miss this place. Y'all are the nicest people on the internet hands-down. You seem to genuinely want to see the little drawings I draw, despite them not really being the beautiful polished things the rest of the internet has become. So, I guess what I'm saying is, I want to come back. I'm experimenting with posting just whatever the hell I've made lately, and might post some old art from the intervening years even though it's not furry mostly. There were some sketches you guys might be interested in. I've made a lot of music and drawn stuff for a dnd campaign I'm in, and I think you guys might be interested in seeing that. It's just sad to me to see my artistic record on the internet has disappeared, that the relationships we worked to foster I let dry up.
I'm also just curious, how do people interact now? Are chat rooms still a thing? Are irl meetups a thing outside of the big cons? (Would I even be brave enough to try?)
I clawed my way out of that situation then moved back closer to home to a SHITTY teaching position that nearly killed me, then scrambled to get to my current place. I like where I work now, but my boss is bad at discipline and that makes my job unnecessarily stressful.
I'm worried about the state of education and how the US is trying to legislate queer people out of existence. I feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells. I can't be out at work, so I'm just roaming around visibly not-conservative waiting for the other shoe to drop.
This account is like, nobody knows this one. Not even my best irl friends know about my secret horny furry art account, (they know I drew art for furries, but I don't think they've ever seen my art like this) and because of what I do for work, I get really paranoid about somebody somehow finding this account and tying it to me and ruining my life. This makes it really hard for me to crosspost anything, because of the fear™️ that it will get tied back to me, partially because when I was in high school a classmate stalked me online and found ALL of my social media accounts then showed up somewhere I had said I would be, despite me not saying a specific place.
But, I miss this place. Y'all are the nicest people on the internet hands-down. You seem to genuinely want to see the little drawings I draw, despite them not really being the beautiful polished things the rest of the internet has become. So, I guess what I'm saying is, I want to come back. I'm experimenting with posting just whatever the hell I've made lately, and might post some old art from the intervening years even though it's not furry mostly. There were some sketches you guys might be interested in. I've made a lot of music and drawn stuff for a dnd campaign I'm in, and I think you guys might be interested in seeing that. It's just sad to me to see my artistic record on the internet has disappeared, that the relationships we worked to foster I let dry up.
I'm also just curious, how do people interact now? Are chat rooms still a thing? Are irl meetups a thing outside of the big cons? (Would I even be brave enough to try?)
He makes appearances in a few of my Commissions and i equally had to promise him that no one would find out! (which i believe ive done an excellent job of so far!)
Glad to hear your current job is doing better for you than your last few jobs!
OOO, Always Excited for Some DnD art for sure! I finally got the chance to start a campaign with friends a few months back, made (what i like to believe) is a really cool character with some interesting backstory, but alas with a bit o IRL drama the campaign got halted!
Chatting n stuff isnt something i've personally done for a few years! mainly lurking, looking at art n talking to artists about commissions but i believe most furries are either using Discord or the phone app 'Telegram' these days to talk to each other!
Most people seem to use Telegram for instant communication and such. Twitter isn't quite what it used to be once Elon took over but it's still there. Mastodon rose in popularity as a result.
A lot of the stuff you listed is why I adopted a fake name to use online. If it ever got hacked or things went sideways, I could claim plausible deniability. (I know it's a little different if you sell stuff online to make money, you have to put a real name somewhere even if it's buried in paperwork)