okay, i'm making a journal about this because i'm actually mad about this shit

so you guys may know yungknight A.K.A costadelcid, right? i was a HUGE fan of him, and i mean it, HUGE
this all happened back in 2021, when i saw one of their images on google, which linked to their twitter account, and i saw a lot of shit that turned me on

i then saw new stuff being posted and i loved it all, their art was so good and so hot that i got attatched to him

then, when i first got my furaffinity account, my... second instinct was to follow him, and on my twitter too
and then a couple of months later... i saw a post of someone who got a trade with him, and it was so cool, so then i wondered "hey! i wonder if he could do a trade for me too!", so then i went to the notes and sent him a kinda nice note about it

but the next day... nothing. he didn't respond to my message, so i was like "oh well" and just kept waiting...

oh how terrible this turned out weeks later...

i was once going into someone's server, and guess what... THEY GOT A TRADE FROM THEM
and my heart instantly shattered and i was in tears
then the only thing i could think of is of a strategy... that didn't really go out as planned

then somebody told me i should talk with costa's boyfriend A.K.A Fritz
i got in contact with them, told them what happened and it didn't really turn out that well
i would just ask him to accept my trade and then he just said he wasn't interested into doing trades right now, so i said that i would wait, then he called me dense and blocked me

at this point, i was just mad at him, i was such a supportive fan of him, and him just being an asshole to me and not do my trade just broke my heart
and let me tell you... HE DOES SIMPLISTIC SHIT, AND LET ME ALSO TELL YOU, MY OC AND MY REQUEST WAS GONNA BE SIMPLISTIC AS HELL, SO WHY WOULD HE EVEN REJECT IT IN THE FIRST FUCKING PLACE??

oh, and to add more salt and more harm to my heart, he blocked me

but anyways, fuck him
the ONLY thing i wanted from him was a trade, and literally the only thing i wanted from him as a whole, and yet, he decided to be an asshole to me

so the only thing i wanna say is...
if he wants to trade with me now, it's already over