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envy & sensitivity issues... [vent]
2 years ago
hey, it's been a while since i've made a journal so, yeah
i wanna vent about something that's been happening in my brain and privately over the past couple of months/weeks
so, most people who're following me here probably don't know this, but i'm extremely sensitive to certain type of stuff. it pretty much goes thru a process of anger and depression and it stays like that until i can, y'know, get distracted by something else and forget about it
everything else is fine and dandy for me, like, i don't mind. but there is one thing that actually gets my brain completely irritated, and that is when someone shows off their art to me, privately, who was done by a very popular artist
now, i don't mind people posting their art privately and whatnot, i'm okay with that. but to me, if the art is like, really really good, i tend to get jealous and, afterwars, tend to have a small mental breakdown while being furious
one example of this is when someone who i wanna keep their name private cuz i don't want anyone to harrass them or anything like that, showed me art of their character, and let me tell you, it was NOT the first time they've showed art of their oc being drawn by someone else
now, here's a bit of a clarification, i don't mind when someone draws your oc IF it's something other than an object oc, cuz i too have got an object oc and... yeah
anyway, so then i was like really trying to not directly act envious... and failed, and then i let my rage out
i wouldn't have cared so much if the person who drew their object oc didn't have 7.7K followers, but they did. worst part is, they didn't even accept requests. so i didn't even care if i knew the artist cuz it would be pretty pointless
so i couldn't hold it in anymore and i pretty much cried for a bit and was in a bad mood for a while. and all of this happened yesterday
and that's pretty much what i have to say
so, in the end, if we are talking thru dms and you got a really nice piece of art you wanna share, DON'T SHARE IT TO ME IN OUR DMS.
again, i tend to get extremely sensitive and jealous when other people get nice art of their object characters and usually get my anger out by speaking in all caps and just downright being frustrated
so please, don't... just don't share any art of someone famous drawing your object oc
i wanna vent about something that's been happening in my brain and privately over the past couple of months/weeks
so, most people who're following me here probably don't know this, but i'm extremely sensitive to certain type of stuff. it pretty much goes thru a process of anger and depression and it stays like that until i can, y'know, get distracted by something else and forget about it
everything else is fine and dandy for me, like, i don't mind. but there is one thing that actually gets my brain completely irritated, and that is when someone shows off their art to me, privately, who was done by a very popular artist
now, i don't mind people posting their art privately and whatnot, i'm okay with that. but to me, if the art is like, really really good, i tend to get jealous and, afterwars, tend to have a small mental breakdown while being furious
one example of this is when someone who i wanna keep their name private cuz i don't want anyone to harrass them or anything like that, showed me art of their character, and let me tell you, it was NOT the first time they've showed art of their oc being drawn by someone else
now, here's a bit of a clarification, i don't mind when someone draws your oc IF it's something other than an object oc, cuz i too have got an object oc and... yeah
anyway, so then i was like really trying to not directly act envious... and failed, and then i let my rage out
i wouldn't have cared so much if the person who drew their object oc didn't have 7.7K followers, but they did. worst part is, they didn't even accept requests. so i didn't even care if i knew the artist cuz it would be pretty pointless
so i couldn't hold it in anymore and i pretty much cried for a bit and was in a bad mood for a while. and all of this happened yesterday
and that's pretty much what i have to say
so, in the end, if we are talking thru dms and you got a really nice piece of art you wanna share, DON'T SHARE IT TO ME IN OUR DMS.
again, i tend to get extremely sensitive and jealous when other people get nice art of their object characters and usually get my anger out by speaking in all caps and just downright being frustrated
so please, don't... just don't share any art of someone famous drawing your object oc
