Hey there guys!

I really appreciate everyone waiting for their comissions and being patient with my easily distracted self, but life have been hitting hard and right now it just got to my metaphorical nuts. Your girl have been going through some emotional burnout since 2021 parental divorce and it's haven't been easy since. You know, those childhood traumas and daddy issues, amirite? Always going up and down but never leaving forever. It's now 2023, some mental problems have been won over, but depression and her fuckbuddies is not something that can be cured with few years of therapy, especially if it was never treated or even spoken aloud before.

March was and still is an extremely hard month for me - my birth date, always filled with existential crisis, shitty family reunions from alcoholic fights to promises of ending my life and so much more. This was always some sort of unavoidable mess, that I keept getting into throught long 25 years. Right now it hit it's peak again and I am a honest mess, I feel apathetic and can barely function, I've cut social contacts to bare minumum, stayed private and silent about ongoing storm that is happening in my head. But I feel like I can not handle it anymore, I have to get back on medical help meaning I will dissapear for some time again. Burnout, anexiety, depression, ongoing war, scooter ankle thoughts, one of my parents dying of cancer and while I can not feel any bit of the pity for everything he have done - its confusing and it hurts and messes with my head.

I am very sorry for falling so hard behind and I am not asking for forgiveness nor pity.
Just please, give me some time. I can handle it. I always got through with it in the end.