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2 years ago
I know I've only posted one pic. Yes I did do it myself, just could never get the motivation to make more. Been having a rough day with depression and thinking on being attracted to Anthro, and general populace views. Tried messaging someone on Twitter, dunno think I was just either looking to vent, or get help, maybe advice. Something that could help, just can't stop dwelling. Of course the message didn't send. Dunno what I expected, guess I'll post it here (slightly edited)
Hi, I'm messaging you because (edit). I'm glad it's easy for you tell be you, I however am terrified of anyone finding out. I'm constantly told by people I know horrible things about furries. Someone I knew (not a friend just in the same circles) was completely ostracized when people found out he was into the culture. People would come to me to talk about it and how awful, gross, etc... it was meanwhile I was scared to say anything and just played along. Later I got a job I was in for well over a decade as a theme park performer including the character suits in the park. Again constantly hearing insults, and comments from coworkers. Especially in that profession, were extra against furries from my experience. Any time a guest would act inappropriately, they were called a furry backstage as an insult. For well over 20 years I've hid it. Smiled and played along to all the insults even though they were hitting me too. I've just felt alone. I'm married and my Wife found pictures on my computer and told me I'm weird. I feel trapped. Like I can't express myself. I found your video because I was looking for any advice to help, but all I kept finding was that it's not a big deal basically. Well I'm glad it's not for others, for me My family would not be cool, former coworkers who're still friends would gossip and it would turn bad (The entertainment industry is like a highschool loving their dramas), and current friends. It's terrifying. I was so scared I made a new account to message you because I don't want to be linked directly. I'm disabled now. Got a spinal injury from performing. I'm so afraid of being alone. Or my Wife leaving me with our kids. Or both. It's not easy for everyone. The fear is crippling I'm in tears right now. Wanting to go out and be myself for so long but myself is hated so I keep it secret. Like I'm hated, and I can't find help anywhere. I used to vent using internet RP chat rooms, but it got old. I dunno, maybe I shouldn't have sent this. I'm just feeling vulnerable. Sorry for bothering. Thank you for your time.
Hi, I'm messaging you because (edit). I'm glad it's easy for you tell be you, I however am terrified of anyone finding out. I'm constantly told by people I know horrible things about furries. Someone I knew (not a friend just in the same circles) was completely ostracized when people found out he was into the culture. People would come to me to talk about it and how awful, gross, etc... it was meanwhile I was scared to say anything and just played along. Later I got a job I was in for well over a decade as a theme park performer including the character suits in the park. Again constantly hearing insults, and comments from coworkers. Especially in that profession, were extra against furries from my experience. Any time a guest would act inappropriately, they were called a furry backstage as an insult. For well over 20 years I've hid it. Smiled and played along to all the insults even though they were hitting me too. I've just felt alone. I'm married and my Wife found pictures on my computer and told me I'm weird. I feel trapped. Like I can't express myself. I found your video because I was looking for any advice to help, but all I kept finding was that it's not a big deal basically. Well I'm glad it's not for others, for me My family would not be cool, former coworkers who're still friends would gossip and it would turn bad (The entertainment industry is like a highschool loving their dramas), and current friends. It's terrifying. I was so scared I made a new account to message you because I don't want to be linked directly. I'm disabled now. Got a spinal injury from performing. I'm so afraid of being alone. Or my Wife leaving me with our kids. Or both. It's not easy for everyone. The fear is crippling I'm in tears right now. Wanting to go out and be myself for so long but myself is hated so I keep it secret. Like I'm hated, and I can't find help anywhere. I used to vent using internet RP chat rooms, but it got old. I dunno, maybe I shouldn't have sent this. I'm just feeling vulnerable. Sorry for bothering. Thank you for your time.
