Heya everyone! Since it seems like ive been consistently disappearing; I feel I should explain whats been happening the past couple of months;;

I feel like i've might've mentioned this in an older journal; but I just wanted to mention it again; my mother has been diagnosed with a long-term terminal illness called Huntingtons Disease; that affects the brain; and is currently in the final stages of it. My family and I have been taking care of her since shes first got diagnosed in 2011. Its one of the main reasons why I started drawing from home; is because I wanted to be able to take care of her and work on the sidelines.

But this year; her condition has gotten to the point that ive been looking into at home care, or even putting her in a skilled nursing home;; but sadly most of the places closest to us ether are full and we're on a waiting list; or that her illness is too much to take care of;; despite her being in the final stages; her illness will conditionally get worse as time goes on; she'll still have another 5-10 years before she passes. Its a very, very slow disease

Its been hard; extremely hard;; I was stressing that my art queue has been growing; and yet my finances were dwindling due to rent/bills. Thankfully my dad/brother are more than willing to pay for my caretaking services till we find a place for her to be taken care of; but as for now, things are getting a bit easier;; Cause not only am i doing this for her; im also doing it for my dad/brother cause its hard to take care of her 24/7, it takes a toll;; everyone needs a break;;

Ive been so emotionally and physically spent for awhile; with Huntingtons Disease; I have a 50/50 chance of inheriting it myself;; So its a lot of mental strain when I take care of her, i always think "This is going to be me in the future" especially you could start showing signs at anytime, mostly around 40-50. -coughs turning 32 this year- aaahh fuck me lol


So yea; my caretaking days are Wednesday/Saturday; so those are days that im away from the computer; won't be able to work on any artwork for the time being! And I also have a side gig with a friend of mine to do their yardwork every Sunday. So im not available that day ether

Now that im getting a bit more help financially; I think I can finally start focusing on my owed art queue a bit;; im just sorry that ive been so off/on for so long; I guess i just want you all to know the reason for it;; Thank you all again for your kindness and patience with me during this time ;w; Sadly I don't think it'll improve till I find a place for her to be safe; but for now, I think things can start rolling a bit more;;

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