I feel...so much anger inside me. A lot has lead to this and I just cant take it anymore. It feels like a poison in my body that is eating me up. I want to get rid of it but at the same time...all the anger makes me feel helpless...unheard and alone...all in my head...but the feelings are still real...it makes me feel trapped and ultimately, sick and empty...and I hate it most of all.

"No cries for help, you will look weak and desperate."
"Stop before people think your weird and unapproachable."
"You don't have real issues, your just angry at life and lashing out like a child."
"Don't bother anyone. Let it sit and do nothing, lest you ruin their day with your problems."
"Just suffer in silence. Its not like you matter to anyone really."

Over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over, on a loop that never seems to end.

But.
I'm not weak. I just...need help sometimes.
I'm not Desperate. I just want to know...if someone cares.
I'm not weird. I just need a safe place to vent...please.
I have issues, just like everyone else. Mine aren't any less important...right?
I don't want to bother anyone...but I don't want to be silent.

So...I'll keep looking. Looking for the answers to let go of my anger. If I still have to do it alone...well, whats a little longer being the lone wolf?
But this will all be the past someday. There is still always hope. Always.
Until then, face the Anger, the Negativity, the Darkness inside. I and anyone else going through the same thing will be glad when you reach the light at the end of the tunnel.