Healing isn't always easy. We are always more tough on ourselves than we are on others when it comes to learning how to heal from trauma or from a bad experience in life that shapes us to who we are.

Lately I've been seeing myself as my worst enemy. I dont like who I've become sometimes. And sometimes I see the bad sides of myself more than the good. My next steps mean deconstructing myself a little and actually evaluating myself.

But...I shouldnt discount the good there is in me either. I dont have to let go of all I am. I just need to seriously ask myself...who I am, what I want to be, and what version of me is going to be the one that I want to be the me that I can live with? I cant wish away the demons or make myself my ideal version in a snap of a finger. It will take time. It will take patience...and it will take a lot of strength to see the change I wish to see through.

I may slip up sometimes, but I know I can do this. The past may have shaped me, but I wont let it haunt me anymore. It happened. I learned. I grew. And I will do so again. Time to move on to tomorrow, one step at a time.

And I'll do it all, trying to remember...no matter what happens, I know Im doing my best. And that is enough.