Struggling
2 years ago
Hey all!
First of all I'd like to thank everyone who favourited and +watched any of my content. It means a lot!
Secondly, I'd like to give some clarity about the lack of stories being uploaded. I suffer from a chronic fatigue with no clear cause, meaning I can't get help for it, and I don't know how to deal with it.
I'm at a different level of tired everyday, ranging from feeling at about 50% of my usual self, to barely being able to get out of bed to eat. Even if I rest an entire day, I can wake up barely able to move, or I can work all day and keep going the next. There is no clear pattern which allows me to work around it.
I'm also depressed as shit :)
I've got medicine for it and it helps, but anyone who has depression knows that it's not as simple as taking a pill and being happy. Everything I do, I do with this weight slowing me down, and it can be really temping to stop going and accept that the weight is preventing you from doing things.
These two things (and a bunch of other things pilling up because life is never simple), mean I've had to quit my job a while ago. I had hoped that it would allow me to focus more on writing, not only things on this site but an actual novel I'm trying to write, but the fatigue seems to have other plans for me...
So here I sit, tired and annoyed, unable to wastefully spend all my money on Lego sets and Pokémon cards, hoping that one of these day I'll be magically cured and able to churn out stories at an incredible pace.
Until then, I guess I'll just sit here and type out my frustrations into this journal...
First of all I'd like to thank everyone who favourited and +watched any of my content. It means a lot!
Secondly, I'd like to give some clarity about the lack of stories being uploaded. I suffer from a chronic fatigue with no clear cause, meaning I can't get help for it, and I don't know how to deal with it.
I'm at a different level of tired everyday, ranging from feeling at about 50% of my usual self, to barely being able to get out of bed to eat. Even if I rest an entire day, I can wake up barely able to move, or I can work all day and keep going the next. There is no clear pattern which allows me to work around it.
I'm also depressed as shit :)
I've got medicine for it and it helps, but anyone who has depression knows that it's not as simple as taking a pill and being happy. Everything I do, I do with this weight slowing me down, and it can be really temping to stop going and accept that the weight is preventing you from doing things.
These two things (and a bunch of other things pilling up because life is never simple), mean I've had to quit my job a while ago. I had hoped that it would allow me to focus more on writing, not only things on this site but an actual novel I'm trying to write, but the fatigue seems to have other plans for me...
So here I sit, tired and annoyed, unable to wastefully spend all my money on Lego sets and Pokémon cards, hoping that one of these day I'll be magically cured and able to churn out stories at an incredible pace.
Until then, I guess I'll just sit here and type out my frustrations into this journal...
HabuTheTiger
~therealblacklion
Hey, if you ever want to have a chat or rant to someone, feel free to message me. If it's easier we can chat on discord or telegram if you prefer! While I might not be great at giving advice, I'll gladly listen and chat :)
dragonripper
~dragonripper
Hey, hoping you will feel better soon. I absolutely live your stories and can't wait to read more of them. Please take good care of yourself.
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