Today was longer than most. I woke up extra early today for PT today, and to be honest I'm not sure why. For some reason I felt I needed to inorder to be ready or something, it was weird hehe. Anyway I was standing outside like 15 minutes before the prior 15 and just hanging out like a goof, but other than that it was a great morning. School was the same old, but I really enjoyed the lesson. We worked on building networks in packet tracer, adding wireless connections. Afterwards was just hanging out.
I was fine most of the day, even really motivated. It's just that after I got out of the school house and on my way home I felt really drained of energy. I ate and just sat in my room scrolling through tiktok. I wanted to do other, more productive, hobbies or even just enjoy a game but I just couldn't. I called my partner and it helped but I felt really isolated and sad even after talking to her. Just a feeling of sinking into despair I guess lol. It didn't help that someone posted the Christmas message to Kirito from Sachi from SAO either. Though by the time I started writing this I'm feeling much better and things have for the most part leveled out. Now I'm looking forward to tomorrow, gonna get a few miles done in the morning and kick the day off right! It's comforting to have such a loving partner I can share these feelings with, it's really a blessing in itself. I'll get to see her this weekend and hopefully we can spend some quality time together and I can see my lil jiji and Riley. Anyway, I have to go to sleep a bit early to make up for the lack of sleep I'm getting recently plus I gotta get up early to get ready. Thanks and good nite!