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Journal entry 8/29/2023
Oh wow look at the time going by, It’s been nine months since I’ve updated and I have a lot to explain. In just the past week and a half, I’ve moved in with a roommate and 2 cats. And my partner and I broke up. I’m still really supportive of him but I was becoming really detached by the end of my rope. If you’re somewhat I’d consider close friends you would remember my words and I wanted to live what I said I’d do. Even if it’s broken my life in a big piece.
I’m sorry I do want to work on my commissions but I feel the real need to get a job right now and work on commissions again. I just had to take a personal break from having another panic attack at work that made me quit on the spot. It was from the stress of having to keep someone together and myself when my own mental health was draining. I’m still really processing everything and we still talk but. I’m pretty scared. I’m pretty scared of being alone in a world that for me has shown no actual place I belong. I don’t know ever where I’ll be happy, I’m pretty sure I’ve had a depressive disorder since I was a child but..I’m so sorry to anyone whom I owe art and haven’t anteed up. The guilt has been eating me but I’m just applying for jobs right now. And I'm getting to face my fears of finishing. I wanna go back to the days where I'd work, and upload the day of.
I do want to pick up on streaming so I can at least buy food and afford my credit card bills. So if you have any kindness or are feeling generous, please hire me for art. I also have a ko-fi and I could use every bit of support I can get. Even if it’s I wish you well, give me those, please. I’m sure I’ll process this whole huge change, but until then, maybe I should do a YCH for some Halloween fun.
Rhyst-
~rhyst-
hope everything goes well, good on ya to consider your own mental health in all this turmoil, best of luck to ya good bean!
