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2 years ago
I'll get right into brass tacks here, some people have probably seen me signing into this account since I disappeared. Unfortunately that has been me...losing it, for lack of a better term. I have unfortunately made very little progress these past few months with my...issues, except for a two week span which let me know that what I'm doing is right. I felt normal, I felt free, I felt happy for what felt like the first time in a very long time.
So I unfortunately have to say that when, if I ever defeat this addiction, I will not be coming back as I said. FA just presents too many temptations for me, writing for me sadly presents too many temptations. Sadly, this journey has taught me that, if I lack anything, it's the will to resist temptation.
I guess I should explain why this is so important for me. Though I discovered this addiction when I was 16, that's because I only took the time to examine myself and recognize this addiction for what it was. I am 30 years old, I have known about and indulged in pornography for 20 years. People can do the math and figure out what age I was when it started, how this fundamentally changed my mind's chemistry growing up. Though that is no excuse. This addiction, this mistake, is my own.
So...yeah, I just thought everyone should know that I won't be coming back. I'm not one of those artists/authors to delete their content, so everything I created will still be here. If you read it and enjoy it, I'm glad, as that's what it's for. I have no judgement, not only because it would be hypocritical, but because I just don't have the energy to care anymore.
For everyone who supported me, thank you. For the friends I've made here, I'm glad I met you, and I'm sorry that I wasn't a better friend or a better person.
Hopefully everyone has a good day, and a good life.
So I unfortunately have to say that when, if I ever defeat this addiction, I will not be coming back as I said. FA just presents too many temptations for me, writing for me sadly presents too many temptations. Sadly, this journey has taught me that, if I lack anything, it's the will to resist temptation.
I guess I should explain why this is so important for me. Though I discovered this addiction when I was 16, that's because I only took the time to examine myself and recognize this addiction for what it was. I am 30 years old, I have known about and indulged in pornography for 20 years. People can do the math and figure out what age I was when it started, how this fundamentally changed my mind's chemistry growing up. Though that is no excuse. This addiction, this mistake, is my own.
So...yeah, I just thought everyone should know that I won't be coming back. I'm not one of those artists/authors to delete their content, so everything I created will still be here. If you read it and enjoy it, I'm glad, as that's what it's for. I have no judgement, not only because it would be hypocritical, but because I just don't have the energy to care anymore.
For everyone who supported me, thank you. For the friends I've made here, I'm glad I met you, and I'm sorry that I wasn't a better friend or a better person.
Hopefully everyone has a good day, and a good life.
I actually never bonded over my kinks with anyone before (everyone else was kinda weird). I could just have a casual conversation about these kinks like it was normal. I’ll cherish that experience and will miss you.