As I go to more cons and such I always feel the same way when it's over. The common post con depression hits hard but what hurts most is I still feel like an outcast amongst furries. I go to cons with friends, talk to people here and there, but I walk away feeling like I don't belong more than ever. And it kinda sucks since no one is at fault, hell I'm going to some room parties and meetups where my harder interests are totally normalized and I still get this way.

So I'm really not sure what I want in the end. Do I need to be constantly talking to new people? Do I just want to get kinkier and be abused every couple of minutes to feel accepted? I really don't know how to satisfy this part of me. But FA isn't my therapist so I should probably stop venting here, I never wanted to be a public vent type of person but I guess until I start actually posting art here I'll keep doing this garbage.