I don't like to ask, but please read this
2 years ago
This is nothing more than a venting journal at the end of the day, so you're free to skip it
Quite unfitting for the day before my very birthday, but I'm not feeling particularly great mood-wise.
I can't shake off the feeling that however many stories I write with pride and effort and finally post, I don't get enough appreciation to keep my willpower high enough.
Weeks go by without a single person commenting on my works, and even when I share my stories to servers and stuff prior to posting them here, I barely get any feedback on them. Everyone I talk about my works to doesn't seem interested.
It's gotten to the point where I don't even get much feedback from people the stories are for, when they're gifts for example.
I'm starting to wonder who I am writing for.
I do enjoy writing, but there's only so much of it I can do before realizing that barely anybody is there to read my stuff.
I like writing for others, I like my stories to have that bit of extra meaning as they involve someone else and bring a smile to their face, be it a gift, a trade, a commission or a collab.
But I'm not really feeling that anymore.
Quite unfitting for the day before my very birthday, but I'm not feeling particularly great mood-wise.
I can't shake off the feeling that however many stories I write with pride and effort and finally post, I don't get enough appreciation to keep my willpower high enough.
Weeks go by without a single person commenting on my works, and even when I share my stories to servers and stuff prior to posting them here, I barely get any feedback on them. Everyone I talk about my works to doesn't seem interested.
It's gotten to the point where I don't even get much feedback from people the stories are for, when they're gifts for example.
I'm starting to wonder who I am writing for.
I do enjoy writing, but there's only so much of it I can do before realizing that barely anybody is there to read my stuff.
I like writing for others, I like my stories to have that bit of extra meaning as they involve someone else and bring a smile to their face, be it a gift, a trade, a commission or a collab.
But I'm not really feeling that anymore.
FA+

it's demoralizing to spend a lot of time and effort on something and just not get a response at all
Thank you buddy, you're a great friend
~Kiva
When you say "I'm starting to wonder who I'm writing for." It should be for yourself and yourself only unless you're doing something for other people, and I'll stick to this until I die. You shouldn't feel forced to write for anyone other than yourself, the only circumstances where I'd say that statement is moot is when you do commissions or stories for others, which I'm aware is what you do pretty frequently. It might be that you need a break from writing the ideas of others and giving your own ideas some time to shine. I write my own ideas because I can easily get hooked on the idea of actually writing them out, and I never expected my FA page to get any traction or interaction because I was writing solely because I wanted to improve at it before I wanted to get into writing novels, so I started small. I know for a fact that when I did writing for others I felt a massive weight being placed on my own ideas for stories, I felt bad for working on them because "I really should be working on this other story for the winner, but it's not an idea I feel inspired to write at the moment and I'd need to force myself to write it." but I worked on them anyway because at the end of the day, it was me who was writing and I'd rather wait to get inspired to continue writing one idea and finish it rather than forcing myself to finish it and get a subpar quality from it. Take a break from comms for a month or two if you can, and just try writing something that's fully you. The only reason I'd offer to write something for someone instead of them coming to me is because I wanted to write for them. Perhaps that's the case for you, but if you're going with that "Who am I writing for" mindset I can't help but think that you don't get to flex your own ideas often enough. I get that you like writing for others, but I only do it on occasion myself, perhaps you should dial it back for a bit and see how you feel after?
Sorry for that mammoth of a comment, but it really sucks seeing you down in the dumps like this, buddy. On your birthday, no less, which really sucks to hear. Hope you feel better soon.