If I actually had the balls to do it I would end my self as there are quite the number of furs that wish that I would and just get it over with so they won't have to put up with me anymore. Being autistic really sucks as it chases people away. But I should be very grateful that I am autistic and not be like a number of other furs who have worse mental issues. I know that I should be highly grateful but its hard to be when every time I turn around I get snide remarks on line or dirty looks in person. I really need to work on it better to suck it up and take it as how people treat me I have well deserved it by acting as I do even if I don't really mean to. If only I had the balls to go through with it, but I don't and that's to bad. ='(

Oh I am sure that if I actually wanted people to actually see this I would get the empty and shallow comments like "Oh you are worth something or other just because you just happen to have be born" kind of BS reaction as that is the "politically correct" things to say to pathetic people like me. But I know its just shallow comments that one is expected to say like when some piece of human garbage dies and everyone acts if they where the salt of the earth and not the piece trash they actually where.