First two words are the best I can use to describe my feelings for the past 4 months. A lot of stuff is going on - 99% of the troubles are connected with my work... I'm fine - don't worry about it. It's just that firstly we were under high pressure connected with new analysys and tasks and then, in the span of 2 weeks, the team that was dealing with all of it (because of different reasons) shortened from 5 people to 2. My colleague and I (with occasional help during especially harsh days) have been trying to keep everything in line since the second week of August. Stress of everything that has been happening, pressure, tiredness made me numb and unwilling to do anything after work. I didn't have enough patience, small mistakes were throwing me off the edge. I just wanted to curl on my bed or couch and scroll on my phone. Games and movies were not so fun anymore.
I'm slowly getting better - some days I'm able to sketch something. I was even able to make some corrections to my older leather project:
Part 1
Part 2

I guess I just needed some time to process everything that has been happening and take some break to rest.

And with the sickness - I've probably got laryngitis. I've mostly lost my voice a couple days ago. Runny nose. Had a couple long nosebleeds. And 2-3 last days - attacks of cough, mostly waking me in the middle of the night. I might need to try to get to the doctor again, if things won't change.

So yes... I am trying to do my best.
Hopefully everything will get easier soon, because I'll admit... I could use some real rest.