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2 years ago
So. I really haven't been able to draw as much, nor finish much at all in recent time at all. For the past few months. And for some reason, my OVERALL motivation for just about, everything has been, drained. Non-Existent. Gone. I don't know why, I want to know why, and probably never will know why. But oh well, I just gotta keep trying to push myself to do things, so I am at least doing something.
If my post of the second Niovak Mech Progress, that is outdated now, and being redone. But also, the fact it has been 10 months already since losing my cat sophie has been... Painful, but in brighter news of that, in fact much brighter news. We took in a new kitten as of a couple of weeks ago. Named Lily, and trying to figure out whether she's a Balinese or Seal Point Siamese. Either way, I have spending some time every day trying to get her used to me being around.
And in terms of everything else, project wise......... ABSOLUTELY FREAKING NOTHING LMAO. Yeah, a whole load of nothing. With my lack of motivation, also comes any lack of progress to any of my projects, including my own terraria mod. No one is trying to help push me back up and do things again, when I desperately need it. When several of the devs are friends of mine. And I while I know they have their things, it's been m o n t h s since anything had happened really. Music wise? Nothing. Code wise? Barely much at all. Sprite and design wise? At least recently tried to redo one of the boss designs that was needed, and about half of it is done, but because of the planned rework, including another part of it. The feeling of eternal suffering is much indeed. But, at least it's SOMETHING, than nothing. I also hate the fact it's hard to find good spriters and coders, who aren't. Y'know. Assholes, like a lot of people in the MODDING community are in terraria. Alas, the modded terraria curse, to really find people willing, you just gotta find the right people and just talk with them a lot and be a good and chill person. Because when I try to just ask people randomly in mod servers I look like I am begging, in my eyes. And boy is wording things for me is difficult. But, in terms of my story? P R O C R A S T I N A T I O N. Nothing else needs to be said.
That is, all that is needed to be said for now. Until my next birthday journal because I am just, going to do them every time now.
Oh and also, perhaps in december, I shall receive my custom 30inch Luna Ezalina plush from budsies. I had waited so long for it, and now it is just a matter of waiting for it to be done heheheheheheh. Big huggable luna plushie.
If my post of the second Niovak Mech Progress, that is outdated now, and being redone. But also, the fact it has been 10 months already since losing my cat sophie has been... Painful, but in brighter news of that, in fact much brighter news. We took in a new kitten as of a couple of weeks ago. Named Lily, and trying to figure out whether she's a Balinese or Seal Point Siamese. Either way, I have spending some time every day trying to get her used to me being around.
And in terms of everything else, project wise......... ABSOLUTELY FREAKING NOTHING LMAO. Yeah, a whole load of nothing. With my lack of motivation, also comes any lack of progress to any of my projects, including my own terraria mod. No one is trying to help push me back up and do things again, when I desperately need it. When several of the devs are friends of mine. And I while I know they have their things, it's been m o n t h s since anything had happened really. Music wise? Nothing. Code wise? Barely much at all. Sprite and design wise? At least recently tried to redo one of the boss designs that was needed, and about half of it is done, but because of the planned rework, including another part of it. The feeling of eternal suffering is much indeed. But, at least it's SOMETHING, than nothing. I also hate the fact it's hard to find good spriters and coders, who aren't. Y'know. Assholes, like a lot of people in the MODDING community are in terraria. Alas, the modded terraria curse, to really find people willing, you just gotta find the right people and just talk with them a lot and be a good and chill person. Because when I try to just ask people randomly in mod servers I look like I am begging, in my eyes. And boy is wording things for me is difficult. But, in terms of my story? P R O C R A S T I N A T I O N. Nothing else needs to be said.
That is, all that is needed to be said for now. Until my next birthday journal because I am just, going to do them every time now.
Oh and also, perhaps in december, I shall receive my custom 30inch Luna Ezalina plush from budsies. I had waited so long for it, and now it is just a matter of waiting for it to be done heheheheheheh. Big huggable luna plushie.
