Hey everyone, it’s been awhile since I’ve made a Journal. I wanted to talk about the things I wish I had, in my own opinion I believe if I had these things in my life then I’d be in a better position in my life. It’s been hard on my own and I wish I had a roommate or a partner.. I’m 31 years old and yes while that’s not an issue, going so long without some type of Love and Intimacy really weighs on me. Seeing others in a relationship a happy one at that kinda gets me sad, yeah sure I can ignore it and stuff but the thoughts stay even if I don’t look or notice it. I don’t mind it at all though, it’s just a part of me that wishes I had a partner… someone to hug and hold and do stuff with, I’m tried of feeling and being alone. Sure don’t get me wrong it feels great being on my own but it’s getting to that point where I want to be with someone or be around someone like a close friend. I wish some of the people I like I could talk to them more often.. I’ve come across a lot of cool awesome furries and we chat for a bit and then stuff fall of. Maybe sometime I think it’s me but then I remember people have their own life and friends already, if they really want you apart of it then they would chat with you more, at least that’s what I think but I truly don’t know because it’s life and things just happen you know?. I wish I wasn’t invisible a lot of the times.. I really do feel like I’m. Don’t get me wrong I’m not the the attention seeking type but… I’m getting that vibe where I really feel invisible… I’m mostly home and everyone else has stuff and things to do, and live their life but… check in on a Lombax once in awhile.. Sure yeah I can hit up other furs but… I don’t wanna do it too often because I’m always home and I’m doing studying of Cybersecurity and these thoughts come up a lot.. I just wish I wasn’t so odd… I wish sometimes I could go places and do stuff.. I wish I had my own car so I don’t have to depend on others to take me places or bug them.. I wish I had a fursuit so I can make funny goofy content and talk to others.. it’s crazy because I think I can do that without one but.. I guess because of my personality I really want to do that do motivate myself if that makes any sense.. I’ll do my best because that’s all I can do, I’m just one man after all and I don’t want to push myself too hard and not feel so bad.
Thank You for taking the time to read this and I hope you have a great day!.