December is the month where there's a sharp decline in sunlight, slowly correcting itself starting today, and everything gets in a hurry to just do everything and remembers stuff that urgently needs to be dealt with, as a result everything is a lot more tiresome, not to mention generally everything is more tiresome when the weather sucks, especially outdoors. There's no time or energy for much
At least I hope that's why I've been grumpy lately other than some stupid backpain to happen exactly on the spot where I like to lay while sleeping which makes sleeping a lot less enjoyable, other than that it might mean doomerization
During the fallout of black friday I was in training with a coworker on literally her last day on the job, all I knew of her was her reputation
Working with her all day? it sort of clicked, she probably appreciated that I don't talk much either but now I fear I'll be exactly like her at her age. Why fear? because she seems extremely unhappy
Plus my generation will never retire
I keep a diary as well for some reason this ramble doesn't appear to fit in it
TLDR december is just rough for mental health due to a multitude of contributing factors and it may snowball into introspection, that crooked beast