Basically I got more upset than ever at work today about something that's just completely nonsensical and pretty much inconsequential (long story short saturday I was stressed out with so much to do I didn't manage to finish everything [further context, been trying to keep unmanned work stations afloat for over two weeks despite them not being my responsibility and barely anyone else giving a fuck about them so all things considered I don't think I've been doing TOO bad], delivered a package that had arrived in poor condition; did everything I had to do on this occasion (and by the way this includes allowing the person to check that nothing inside is missing or damaged which went without a hitch); this piece of garbage left negative, insulting feedback about my attitude saying I was acting nonchalant about it [that's the polite part, I'm not relaying what else he said about me] - no you turd that's not nonchalance it's being stressed out of my mind because I'm trying to desserve 100+ more other dipshits who also think they're the center of the universe and deserve my undivided attention, just because I wasn't crying over your stinky piece of shit sneakers' outer protection doesn't mean I acted unprofessionally) and - already feeling like shit because I had failed to complete the day successfully (which I maintain under these circumstances was downright unfeasible) now I feel hated and singled out, plus it's monday. This pre-ruined day was thus complete hell for me mentally. Joking I don't normally mind mondays but this one was just awful for this single stupid reason, feels like just one more reason to hate my own mind and how it doesn't work.

But what's that? I'll have half the week off which came pretty much out of nowhere; it's like some demon is watching over and malding over the fact I'll get to enjoy some free time. So obviously I have to rot in customer service purgatory first and be confronted to the bottom of the entitled barrel.

And a few people I like contacted me on the very same day to talk about stuff I care about, out of the blue, plus some comic books I had ordered arrived. AND the weather, gloomy this morning, subsequently morphed into this delightful mid October weather, making the autumn leaves golden, that's just the bee's knee of the entire year. How is that possible.

Likely just a coincidence, this isn't a straight out schizo post.

TLDR massive emotional contrasts are distressing
No need to read further it's all complete garbage, just wanted to get that off my chest