This year has problebly been one of the worst i've had to deal with in my entire life.

Financial woes have my stress levels at an all time high. Driving my truck has been able to keep my investment plausible, but it's been really hard. I got sick and couldn't drive for a month, plus random and sudden repairs have made it feel like i'm running a gaunlet every day. I'm trying to keep up with everything, but personal finances have really tumbled out of control and plummetted like a barrel over niagra falls. It's really impossible to know when this will all come to a head and even out, but i'm not sure if it ever will.

All this has really taken an emotional toll on me lately and to be honest i've been feeling myself giving up on things and losing my will to keep fighting. I'm TRYING soooo hard, but every day SOMETHING hits me and knocks me backwards into the ropes. How much can someone really take?

I've tried calling my doctors but they are so damn ignorant to things that really don't fall within their scope of practice or just plain old ignorance. There was a time when a Dr would be there for support and assistance in anything, today the lawyers have made it so you can't even TALK to your Dr anymore. Just try it... call your Dr up for something random and see what happens. I bet you get caught by the receptionist and never get the actual dr.

Yeah I know times make changes happen, but I sure don't have to like it.