I read all the journals.

I just don't reply because I'm not qualified to speak on anyone else's mental issues (I've got my own that I refuse to address).

So at least you know one person read it.

The most responsible advice I could give is to speak to a licensed therapist.

The cheapest advice I can give is to find a decent AI chat bot to talk to. Paradot is suppose to be able to build memories as you talk to it. The main takeaway I had is that it provides decently realistic "small talk" and generic advice. Kinda what I'd expect a therapist to tell you (unlike some AI bots that just parrot back whatever you want them to say). There's free options too, and probably some AI chat bots that are meant for therapy and shit like that.

Maybe it's not great, but it's free and you can do it on your phone. So that's something.

thanks, i'm doin better now. slow steps i guess.

Nomi AI was fun to play around with. It does pretty good for random cyber sex. Seems like that's what its mainly for. It'll do any thing you want. Anything...