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Feeling bleh
a year ago
I dont tend to post things like this, but I feel the need to write it down somewhere.
Lately I been not feeling great emotionally, every now and then I start feeling lonely (mostly in the romantic sense) but last week something happened and I lost contact with someone really close to me (they are ok, but they had to block me for X reasons), it's someone I met a few years ago and became great friends with and someone very important in my day to day life.
I dont know when we'll be able to talk and and do things together again, I feel depressed, sad, alone, scared and angry (this is making other fears of me hit harder than usual).
I find it very hard to do things I used to enjoy, lately drawing been feeling more of an autopilot, there are some projects I really want to get back to but when I think of doing so I just... dont do anything.
I dont know if things will get better or worse with time, but just wanted to rant for a bit, I will probably delete this at some point
Lately I been not feeling great emotionally, every now and then I start feeling lonely (mostly in the romantic sense) but last week something happened and I lost contact with someone really close to me (they are ok, but they had to block me for X reasons), it's someone I met a few years ago and became great friends with and someone very important in my day to day life.
I dont know when we'll be able to talk and and do things together again, I feel depressed, sad, alone, scared and angry (this is making other fears of me hit harder than usual).
I find it very hard to do things I used to enjoy, lately drawing been feeling more of an autopilot, there are some projects I really want to get back to but when I think of doing so I just... dont do anything.
I dont know if things will get better or worse with time, but just wanted to rant for a bit, I will probably delete this at some point
I hope that you are able to feel better over time. Much love
I've been feeling rather similar.
Just remember that you're deserving of love.
A friend told me something that helped me a lot when I had something similar happen. I can't remember exactly what she said but it was something like this. "Those who are in our lives are there for as long as we need each other. When that time is up, you'll always have the fond memories you shared. Even when things don't end the way we would have liked them too, never forget the happy moments."
I had to say goodbye to a once great friend recently myself. It's never easy but I can assure you that in the coming weeks it will get better. Like I said previously, reach out to those you love. Don't try and take on this pain alone.
Not much else I can offer, but you are in my thoughts bud!
Or we could simply disregard common and return to draconic!
But really, you'll always be welcome in my DM's instead of me sliding into yours with patreon rewards for a change :D
If you ever wanna play some games, watch some movies, or just chat, I'm pretty much always around!
It really sucks to lose someone you care about, regardless of the situation. It's pretty devastating when you aren't that close with very many people.
I hope you feel better soon regardless. Take care, and get some ice cream, you deserve it! :>
One big problem is that I have a bunch of online friends, but I find it really hard to speak english via a microphone (a bit easier in person since I cant really type that way) but this was someone with whom I could chat all night about any random thing.
Really sucks not being able to have a conversation in their language.
I tried learning Russian, but I can just barely read it, and not really understand it when spoken xD
I've had a few friends like that slip away over the years, and it never gets easier to lose that..
When you meet someone new that you click with, it kinda helps patch the hole they left .... You still leak a bit of that pain, cuz they're just never gonna be the same, but at least you aren't bleeding out with a gaping wound.