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Another update (oxygen)
a year ago
So after a couple days in the hospital, my mate was discharged, but he has to be on oxygen tank now thanks to having part of his lung removed + COPD. He is very unhappy and stressed about this, and our lifestyle is changing a bit, and neither of us are good with change.
Last night I was so stressed out I got a bad case of vertigo, vomited, and passed out lol. But I am feeling better today. I think all the stress of the last few days really welled up inside. That mixed with no sleep for days and only eating fast food here and there... my health was not being taken care of very well. But I think we're slowly getting back on track.
But it sounds like we may have caught the cancer early enough that it might be completely gone now, just at a cost. But personally I'd rather deal with adjusting to oxygen than having cancer and going through chemo or radiation therapy treatments, or choosing to forego them and watching my mate wither away.
I will try to stay positive. While the most important thing to me is caring for my mate, I do realize I have to take care of myself too. If I'm not good I can't take proper care of him anyway. Thanks everyone for your kind words and thoughts through this process.
Last night I was so stressed out I got a bad case of vertigo, vomited, and passed out lol. But I am feeling better today. I think all the stress of the last few days really welled up inside. That mixed with no sleep for days and only eating fast food here and there... my health was not being taken care of very well. But I think we're slowly getting back on track.
But it sounds like we may have caught the cancer early enough that it might be completely gone now, just at a cost. But personally I'd rather deal with adjusting to oxygen than having cancer and going through chemo or radiation therapy treatments, or choosing to forego them and watching my mate wither away.
I will try to stay positive. While the most important thing to me is caring for my mate, I do realize I have to take care of myself too. If I'm not good I can't take proper care of him anyway. Thanks everyone for your kind words and thoughts through this process.
About being lonely at home the other day...it's sort of a blessing though, when you think about it. I'm so happy you two have been together for 15 years and always had that physical closeness. It sucks to have temporary distance but it must be nice to have the loneliness be unusual, rather than a baseline like it is for me right now. (Don't worry. It will change for me. I have a lovely sheep-friend coming up here within a year and I won't be so lonely then.)
It sounds like you're maybe taking the stress worse than your mate is. Try to deep-breathe and maybe take moments of isolation and silence to meditate a little. I find it helps me to just completely clear my head now and then with my anxiety issues.
I assume the oxygen is permanent now. :( I'm sorry to both of you. I can understand your stress, seeing him on that. I wish lungs could heal back a bit...
I got a pretty neat multiplayer stream going on today, sort of playing a mini-mmo with friends, if you want a distraction or anything. *hugs*
And yeah I don't take too well to stress :P I'll try my best <3
I've tried stopping by the multiplayer streams before but hearing multiple people talking at once like that spikes my anxiety XD So I kinda avoid those, sorry. Thank you for the invitation though <3 I took the time off in the evening while he rested watching videos on his computer to play some handheld gaming a little ^^
Wishing a nice recovery and hopefully no oversights. keep going forward, you have my blessings.
I'm hoping things won't be as hard as they are now for you two. Best wishes!
Thanks for the well wishes :)