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Fatigue, Marvel Comics, Big Mouth, and medical stuff.
a month ago
Hey everyone, how have you been? I have had the most exhausting 2 weeks... pretty much appointments or other responsibilities EVERY DAY... I did have a free day on Tuesday and ended up just sleeping the whole day... I couldn't stay awake no matter how hard I tried. Also recently my body has been aching a lot... pretty much anywhere will ache now and then. Right now it's my left thigh (??) and almost always it's my wrists/hands pretty bad, even when I'm not using them much. Doing anything with my hands makes them feel weak. I need to make an appointment with my doctor but I've been too busy to make a phone call. Not that I don't have the time, but making a phone call requires a ridiculous amount of energy and prep for me.
I also decided to try to get into Marvel comic books... I read a little in the 80s/90s here and there (mostly The Invincible Iron Man) but I don't really remember it very well. I just know Tony Stark was probably my first real fictional crush lmao. For some reason I would always feel funny when he would be in romantic scenes like kissing Pepper. I remember once waiting at the optometrist (sp?) and just staring at a panel of them kissing and him saying "Mmmmm" LOL and feeling some sort of way that I didn't understand. I wouldn't call Tony my 'gay awakening' as I didn't actually realize I was gay until my crush on a teacher in middle school. But looking back I DEFINITELY realize I was enamored with him even as a young child hahaha.
Anyway, I don't really have any particular comic I want to get into because I know almost nothing about Marvel other than being able to recognize some character designs. So I am following a reading order I found online and just reading starting from Fantastic Four in 1961. It's been quite strange. I've only read 3 comics so far but they are very funny and weird. I can't believe people (even kids) took them seriously back then with how bizarre and silly they can be.
Also, despite having like no motivation to do anything at all with fatigue + depression, I randomly got hyperfixated on a show called Big Mouth on Netflix and binged the entire first season all at once (with a break to eat). Very strange because I've only been able to bring myself to read a total of 3 comic books in the course of an entire week lol. It's a very strange show and sometimes makes you very uncomfortable, but in a weird nostalgic and relatable way. I normally don't enjoy comedy much but I actually laughed a lot at this show.
Speaking of no motivation though, I finally did get into an appointment with my new psychiatrist (I've had 3 appointments with my new therapist now) and I'm getting back on medication... having to take it slow after not being on any for 3 months or so. So hopefully things will be better going forward. I'm going to start a new medication today (one I was taking before but trying to get back up to where I was before).
I also decided to try to get into Marvel comic books... I read a little in the 80s/90s here and there (mostly The Invincible Iron Man) but I don't really remember it very well. I just know Tony Stark was probably my first real fictional crush lmao. For some reason I would always feel funny when he would be in romantic scenes like kissing Pepper. I remember once waiting at the optometrist (sp?) and just staring at a panel of them kissing and him saying "Mmmmm" LOL and feeling some sort of way that I didn't understand. I wouldn't call Tony my 'gay awakening' as I didn't actually realize I was gay until my crush on a teacher in middle school. But looking back I DEFINITELY realize I was enamored with him even as a young child hahaha.
Anyway, I don't really have any particular comic I want to get into because I know almost nothing about Marvel other than being able to recognize some character designs. So I am following a reading order I found online and just reading starting from Fantastic Four in 1961. It's been quite strange. I've only read 3 comics so far but they are very funny and weird. I can't believe people (even kids) took them seriously back then with how bizarre and silly they can be.
Also, despite having like no motivation to do anything at all with fatigue + depression, I randomly got hyperfixated on a show called Big Mouth on Netflix and binged the entire first season all at once (with a break to eat). Very strange because I've only been able to bring myself to read a total of 3 comic books in the course of an entire week lol. It's a very strange show and sometimes makes you very uncomfortable, but in a weird nostalgic and relatable way. I normally don't enjoy comedy much but I actually laughed a lot at this show.
Speaking of no motivation though, I finally did get into an appointment with my new psychiatrist (I've had 3 appointments with my new therapist now) and I'm getting back on medication... having to take it slow after not being on any for 3 months or so. So hopefully things will be better going forward. I'm going to start a new medication today (one I was taking before but trying to get back up to where I was before).
Take it easy, Ness. As much as you can.
And random pains are such a... well... pain.
Thanks and I hope you do well as well <3
https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B07LD57697 This is the exact second model type we bought...sadly the more-comfy first one is no longer sold I think. But maybe it's something you can look into. They don't cost that much.