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Help me fix my car and get to FWA? +Updates
a year ago
Mental Health Posting, Financial Stuff below:
hello all~ I wanna start this off with some thoughts. Ive done a lot of mental health posting over the years and I've realized it's because I'm ashamed for having difficulties working and trying to prove to myself and my supporters that I'm not just some deadbeat. I've been starting to accept that we're relatively disabled and have been for a long time and I need to be easier on myself. I'm the only one questioning my worth as a person for being poor and struggling to work. Im trying to retrain myself to stop viewing myself as lazy and try to do what I can in the face of depression, dissociation, and frequent post traumatic stress. I realize looking back I often was losing time or unaware of what I was even dealing with and just getting frustrated that I can't seem to focus or get anything done and ADHD meds weren't working. I've always felt ashamed everytime I ask for money or patience.
Things are improving. I got better meds and am transitioning over to a therapist with experience in DID. HRT has made it easier to face the person in the mirror and I'm starting to like her. I have amazing friends. I have a food card and stable housing. I am safe. in some ways, things are still very hard. I don't want to talk about things I've started to remember or see in flashbacks, I feel entirely too vulnerable to admit how often I'm completely flattened or can't rally the troops in my head in the right direction. I realize that with my mental health prognosis it will probably take several years before I am consistently stable but sometimes I have weeks where I get a lot done before I fall down. My system is large, I have a complex case of an already complex trauma disorder and we're still not 100% how that happened but I'm sure I can't remember all of it for a reason. lol.
TL;DR It takes years of therapy to treat DID and I need to stop making posts claiming I'm about to be 100% better and unhindered anytime soon, and I can make peace with that. still gonna keep trying our hardest >:3c
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My car broke recently, the steering went out and some other things are starting to get bad. she's a good car with more life in her but the costs are steep. it's coming at a bad time as I've had a trip planned (to see our partner for a week and then FWA) for months we've been saving for and because of recent inability to work because of mental health we've ended up draining those finances back down. we want to try to do everything we can to avoid more debt (I racked up thousands last year on credit cards because america sucks and doesn't have short term mental health disability). We also really make it out to see our friends, it makes life a lot more bearable and happy
We have too many commissions right now to responsibly open up and take more, so I'm asking for help if anyone has anything to spare, I want to be transparent so you can choose if you believe in the cause or not. the expenses over the next 45 days look a little something like this
Car Repairs: $2500 (it's going on a credit card)
Gas: $150
Brake pads: $50??
Weed restock for the year (medicinal): $300
Food during trip: $100
2023 Taxes: $820 (taking out a loan)
haircut+dye (my first time? I wanna look like maney): $80-140
Black lipstick and toiletries: $40
My usual expenses: $1206
Con merch budget: $50
I can usually complete $1200-1500 worth in commissions as my only income per month. Prior to taxes and the car things were doable, now I'm pretty stressed. we're gonna try really hard to keep up with things as mental health allows. hoping for a miracle, the hotel and reg are already covered
please help us afford a little vacation while minimizing debt and the amount we have to work during it.
- <3 Maney(s)
Ko-fi.com/maneframe
Paypal.me/maneframe
Venmo: Neighslayer ( pfp is Kitty :3 )
p.s. We will be streaming at 1900 CST tonight on https://picarto.tv/Maneframe , there will be charr balls and bats.
p.s.s if anyone that's a trusted friend that wants to help us get posts up on FA, for some reason we're completely allergic to it and I feel bad for only posting to telegram. Feel free to reach out if interested
hello all~ I wanna start this off with some thoughts. Ive done a lot of mental health posting over the years and I've realized it's because I'm ashamed for having difficulties working and trying to prove to myself and my supporters that I'm not just some deadbeat. I've been starting to accept that we're relatively disabled and have been for a long time and I need to be easier on myself. I'm the only one questioning my worth as a person for being poor and struggling to work. Im trying to retrain myself to stop viewing myself as lazy and try to do what I can in the face of depression, dissociation, and frequent post traumatic stress. I realize looking back I often was losing time or unaware of what I was even dealing with and just getting frustrated that I can't seem to focus or get anything done and ADHD meds weren't working. I've always felt ashamed everytime I ask for money or patience.
Things are improving. I got better meds and am transitioning over to a therapist with experience in DID. HRT has made it easier to face the person in the mirror and I'm starting to like her. I have amazing friends. I have a food card and stable housing. I am safe. in some ways, things are still very hard. I don't want to talk about things I've started to remember or see in flashbacks, I feel entirely too vulnerable to admit how often I'm completely flattened or can't rally the troops in my head in the right direction. I realize that with my mental health prognosis it will probably take several years before I am consistently stable but sometimes I have weeks where I get a lot done before I fall down. My system is large, I have a complex case of an already complex trauma disorder and we're still not 100% how that happened but I'm sure I can't remember all of it for a reason. lol.
TL;DR It takes years of therapy to treat DID and I need to stop making posts claiming I'm about to be 100% better and unhindered anytime soon, and I can make peace with that. still gonna keep trying our hardest >:3c
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
My car broke recently, the steering went out and some other things are starting to get bad. she's a good car with more life in her but the costs are steep. it's coming at a bad time as I've had a trip planned (to see our partner for a week and then FWA) for months we've been saving for and because of recent inability to work because of mental health we've ended up draining those finances back down. we want to try to do everything we can to avoid more debt (I racked up thousands last year on credit cards because america sucks and doesn't have short term mental health disability). We also really make it out to see our friends, it makes life a lot more bearable and happy
We have too many commissions right now to responsibly open up and take more, so I'm asking for help if anyone has anything to spare, I want to be transparent so you can choose if you believe in the cause or not. the expenses over the next 45 days look a little something like this
Car Repairs: $2500 (it's going on a credit card)
Gas: $150
Brake pads: $50??
Weed restock for the year (medicinal): $300
Food during trip: $100
2023 Taxes: $820 (taking out a loan)
haircut+dye (my first time? I wanna look like maney): $80-140
Black lipstick and toiletries: $40
My usual expenses: $1206
Con merch budget: $50
I can usually complete $1200-1500 worth in commissions as my only income per month. Prior to taxes and the car things were doable, now I'm pretty stressed. we're gonna try really hard to keep up with things as mental health allows. hoping for a miracle, the hotel and reg are already covered
please help us afford a little vacation while minimizing debt and the amount we have to work during it.
- <3 Maney(s)
Ko-fi.com/maneframe
Paypal.me/maneframe
Venmo: Neighslayer ( pfp is Kitty :3 )
p.s. We will be streaming at 1900 CST tonight on https://picarto.tv/Maneframe , there will be charr balls and bats.
p.s.s if anyone that's a trusted friend that wants to help us get posts up on FA, for some reason we're completely allergic to it and I feel bad for only posting to telegram. Feel free to reach out if interested
Amethystine
~amethystine
I'll talk to you on Telegram about a possible plan.
