That title sounds alot dumber than the situation is. My cat of nearly 18 years has taken a turn for the worse. Not eating on his own, jaundiced, weak, nausea... today the tests showed that the mass the vet felt yesterday appears to be pancreatic cancer, and possibly spreading to the lymph nodes. We can make him comfortable by shrinking the mass with steroids to help his appetite and his pain, giving him anti-nausea meds and also painkillers, but there isn't any options for chemo with this cancer, plus he was already an old cat who probably didn't have the strength to endure treatment like that to begin with. He is dying. My Nikota is dying and I can't function much beyond giving him his meds, syringe feeding him fluids and food, comforting him, thinking about him and crying.

I'm broken for now. I'll be okay eventually and put myself back together, but for now I am focused mainly on making him comfortable as much as possible and figuring out when the best time is to have a vet come to our home and end things. I think at least for this week I should not be active with commissions. I apologize for the delays, but I'm also sure you guyscan understand. This cat has been with me since he was born. He has been a constant companion in my life longer than even my fiance. We are both devastated by this news. I appreciate everyone's patience while we process this.

Hug your pets close. You never know when that thing that only they do with you will be the last time they do it.