hey there... if anyone even pays attention to these...

I figured I'd post something about where I'm at mentally... its not a good place...

to sum it up... I feel like people are leaving me behind left and right because I can't keep pace with them... either that or they've moved on from me to do more important things and have forgotten I even exist. I know this isn't exactly an uncommon sentiment among people like me who have a hard time staying focused or simply don't have anything to contribute to the conversation, but thats where I am...

and it doesn't really help that I've had a friend try to rip the rug right out from under me and take everything I've built up to this point as his own... imitating me down to the last wire... or at least thats what it felt like right up until I cut it off at the root to save myself the mental sanity... I won't go into details about that, but if you know, you know...

in any case... I honestly don't have the words to say at this point... I feel like my life's been scraped before it even started... and I have absolutely no one else to blame for that failure other then myself...

anyway... thats where I am... thanks for reading... have a good day...