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a year ago
So, things really didn't get better and there's just been stacking anxiety about typing anything.
For those that care; Uh, my health got worse. I've been having some issues with my eyes and I spent 400$ at a specialist only for them to tell me to ignore the issue and since then it's gotten worse.
There was a friend I had here and had him for 8 years who in the span of 2 months decided to betray me over a foot fetish he randomly developed. It wasn't even a matter of choosing one group or another. One of his weird foot freak friends made sexual comments at me, I told him to fuck off and that made me the bad guy. It made me look back on our friendship and really just see I was kinda used that entire time.
I drew this picture as a joke
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32485112/
but it was pretty accurate. I didn't want to ever upset him or see my friend upset. I paid his bills a number of times when I didn't have a job and he did JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE FRIEND BE UNHAPPY. I bought him a partial fursuit. He'd have an anxiety attack? I drew something to cheer him up. When I was upset and not having a great time, he'd yell at me....In the end I found out he was mooching money off one of my mutual friends who I introduced him to.
I kinda want to sell the Scone suit. I kinda want to leave this account. Idk
I had another friend here but I feel she's just getting distant because I started drawing other things.
I have a new group of friends and they've been really encouraging and supportive towards me. They've rekindled my love of 3d and have taught me to use new softwares. They taught me that I don't always have to be giving it my all, my 200% basically killing myself just to get a little attention or affection online. Real talk? At one point I had put fucking toothpaste in my eyes to help with all nighters so I could work for days on end, I called it "the forbidden technique".
For those that care; Uh, my health got worse. I've been having some issues with my eyes and I spent 400$ at a specialist only for them to tell me to ignore the issue and since then it's gotten worse.
There was a friend I had here and had him for 8 years who in the span of 2 months decided to betray me over a foot fetish he randomly developed. It wasn't even a matter of choosing one group or another. One of his weird foot freak friends made sexual comments at me, I told him to fuck off and that made me the bad guy. It made me look back on our friendship and really just see I was kinda used that entire time.
I drew this picture as a joke
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32485112/
but it was pretty accurate. I didn't want to ever upset him or see my friend upset. I paid his bills a number of times when I didn't have a job and he did JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE FRIEND BE UNHAPPY. I bought him a partial fursuit. He'd have an anxiety attack? I drew something to cheer him up. When I was upset and not having a great time, he'd yell at me....In the end I found out he was mooching money off one of my mutual friends who I introduced him to.
I kinda want to sell the Scone suit. I kinda want to leave this account. Idk
I had another friend here but I feel she's just getting distant because I started drawing other things.
I have a new group of friends and they've been really encouraging and supportive towards me. They've rekindled my love of 3d and have taught me to use new softwares. They taught me that I don't always have to be giving it my all, my 200% basically killing myself just to get a little attention or affection online. Real talk? At one point I had put fucking toothpaste in my eyes to help with all nighters so I could work for days on end, I called it "the forbidden technique".
I hope you're able to get your eyes checked out too. Your health is important!! Hoping for nothing but the best for you, and I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. 💕💕💕