Is those that will stick around during your withdrawal, and those that will take the opportunity to be one of the extremely few you will still speak to during hiatus to secretly edit a message offline and tell you they're done with you because you're upset and not be there for you.

This is exactly, exactly why I having ghosting issues. Friend issues, trust issues.
Why I have this fucking journal explaining what I expect from my friendships.
Because I'm tired of even being offline, trying to pullback and deal with my anxiety and dark thoughts and saying the smallest of feelings to people who tell me they're "there for me" and getting bailed on.
Meanwhile I get hated on and yelled at for being emotional and attached, for wanting "too much" and the hypocrisy is astounding and mindblowing.

I cannot be right, at all.
I speak, and I'm wrong.
I stay silent, and I'm wrong.
No matter what, people walk away after carelessly tossing about the words "care about you" and yet wonder why I have so many of these issues.

I am trying to be me in world with people who live by the rule "do as I say, not as I do" and I have no place to be safe. I cannot beg or cry anymore, I am dry.
And I am on the verge of learning to disconnect and just..not care about anything or anyone anymore.
Because I cannot trust anything or anyone with the smallest bit of hope. Of myself.

And there's barely any of that left. And I am trying my damnest to keep going on empty.