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So.... a shitton is hapening right now
a year ago
Hence my inactivity. And im so sorry for it
I had a funeral and a wedding in one single week. Needed to get a metric ton of paperwork ready for my fiancee to keep him here since hes from the USA. The process of it is so fucking complicated and uncertain and its been really stressfull. Ontop of all of it im short on funds.
My motivation is abit fucked to draw much latley aswell. Even with comissions. While i really want to save for a upgrade and for a new PC. Its not possible right now. All the funds i have is keep our heads above water. Worst of all i dont think i can take a fucking vacation and my vacation money is gone aswell.....
I havent been even able to buy myself a birthday present for myself this year eighter and i just turned 30.....
I had abit of a mental breakdown last week because i was in so much pain and i felt kicked down so much. Because everything is so fucking expensive. Ontop of that im sick with a cold!
I know i need to go trough this all with my fiancee. Im really happy were together right now. I just do everything right now to make it permanent.
When thats the case he can look for a job and support the both of us and were able to live more comfortably.
Belive me. Im NOT gone. Im still here. Almost every day i check my server and FA. Not always twitter however. Im just under so much pressure that i just cannot draw much right now. Or have the mental capacity to do much else.
Sorry for the vent on it all. But i been incredibly busy IRL latley. Before it was the house to get it ready before my fiancee is here and now he is. Its one after another. Thank god hes super helpfull in the house. He made me dinner today while i was sick in bed ;-;
I had a funeral and a wedding in one single week. Needed to get a metric ton of paperwork ready for my fiancee to keep him here since hes from the USA. The process of it is so fucking complicated and uncertain and its been really stressfull. Ontop of all of it im short on funds.
My motivation is abit fucked to draw much latley aswell. Even with comissions. While i really want to save for a upgrade and for a new PC. Its not possible right now. All the funds i have is keep our heads above water. Worst of all i dont think i can take a fucking vacation and my vacation money is gone aswell.....
I havent been even able to buy myself a birthday present for myself this year eighter and i just turned 30.....
I had abit of a mental breakdown last week because i was in so much pain and i felt kicked down so much. Because everything is so fucking expensive. Ontop of that im sick with a cold!
I know i need to go trough this all with my fiancee. Im really happy were together right now. I just do everything right now to make it permanent.
When thats the case he can look for a job and support the both of us and were able to live more comfortably.
Belive me. Im NOT gone. Im still here. Almost every day i check my server and FA. Not always twitter however. Im just under so much pressure that i just cannot draw much right now. Or have the mental capacity to do much else.
Sorry for the vent on it all. But i been incredibly busy IRL latley. Before it was the house to get it ready before my fiancee is here and now he is. Its one after another. Thank god hes super helpfull in the house. He made me dinner today while i was sick in bed ;-;
Also congrats to your friend who got married, and my condolences to the family of whoever has shucked this mortal coil.
Also started yesterday on taking Fish oil pills to help me focus better and hopefully make my brain less chaotic.
And, there's a thing called "late birthday" present, which is a normal thing to do cause people are having financial trouble these days from how BS the world has gotten.
More than anything right now is how nice it is to have your husband living with you, and to help you out. :)
And i remember you told me that. That you had a Barbecue with them. Really nice! And yeah the world is in fucking chaos right now and i rather not think of it too much. I dont watch the news because it only angers me latley
I sincerley hope after everything is settled we can afford the things we like. Hell even get married when its all over. We already know we dont want a big extravagant wedding.
And it was a wedding of my cousin and my best friend. I can legaly call my best friend family now haha!!! It was a nice wedding and a nice way to end all the bullshit we dealt with
The weather has been perfect for us all so it made sense we had some bbq.
I usually would look at the news stuff, and then be here or on discord to get away from it all!
Things will be settled for you soon. And marriage would be the most wonderful thing to have between you,sky,families and of course friends. :)
But, that will have to wait for another time, due to how much it can cost.
Besides that, it was great to see you two at a wedding and just how nice it can be
Take as long as you need to get back in the groove.
Thankfully your fiancee is there to lean on, which from personal exp it's a life changer.
Tho 21st of august we hopefully get told if hes allouwed to stay or not. Thats still few months away.
We went to the swimming pool yesterday to relax along with my mom. Playing minecraft again. And im taking fish oil pills in the hope i can focus better.
Thank you for offering bru. I also wanna join on VR chat again in the future. It was really fun last time
All of that sounds very hard. I'm sorry that you have been hurting lately. What you have been going through must be very awful to put it lightly.
You have a very strong heart. Dealing with all of this weight on your shoulders has definitely had have been very very difficult and painful. But, you haven't given up. And I think that is very good of you.
You are doing great dear. Even if you don't feel like you are. You're doing a very good job.
It's going to be ok.