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Why the question on pregnancy art. (Very personal)
3 months ago
Because i cannot get pregnant myself.
Im born with MRKH. Alot of people know about this already. Its not a secret. But for ones who dont know. Im born without a uteris. Im a woman but its a horrible birth defect. Its nothing more than that.
I cant bare kids myself. While i really want to. And its difficult living with it. If you want kids. But latley im thinking more and more "do i really want kids?"
But yeah it severley can impact my art to the point i just cant draw. It can pull me so low into a hole that i cant get out of at times and its soul crushing
But
I used to draw it alot before i knew i had this condition. And i loved doing so. It gave me comfort. But ever since i knew i just avoid it like the plauge. While i really wanna draw it and atleast enjoy that fantasy. But my brain keeps telling me "You cant do it IRL. So dont bother." Or "You cant have kids and your not allouwed to draw this" ...while i want to at times when i feel good enough to do so.... And there is a little bit of a kink aspect to it too that i like to explore and experiance
Im just often so reluctant to draw it because people did made fun of me before that i cant have kids. Really horrible shit was said to me to hurt me. Tho this was in my deviantart days. Sadly it also came from FA. If people have the guts now to mock me for not being able to have kids as a means to anger me or win an argument....you will be put on blast and crucified by the people who do
Hence i made the journal if you guys were okay with it. I got alot of positive feedback. So i want to try making more of it. Because i was hoping people also have a genuene interest in it.
I dont think it be up for comissions anytime soon. Maybe someday i take pregnancy comissions. Only very sparely.
Im born with MRKH. Alot of people know about this already. Its not a secret. But for ones who dont know. Im born without a uteris. Im a woman but its a horrible birth defect. Its nothing more than that.
I cant bare kids myself. While i really want to. And its difficult living with it. If you want kids. But latley im thinking more and more "do i really want kids?"
But yeah it severley can impact my art to the point i just cant draw. It can pull me so low into a hole that i cant get out of at times and its soul crushing
But
I used to draw it alot before i knew i had this condition. And i loved doing so. It gave me comfort. But ever since i knew i just avoid it like the plauge. While i really wanna draw it and atleast enjoy that fantasy. But my brain keeps telling me "You cant do it IRL. So dont bother." Or "You cant have kids and your not allouwed to draw this" ...while i want to at times when i feel good enough to do so.... And there is a little bit of a kink aspect to it too that i like to explore and experiance
Im just often so reluctant to draw it because people did made fun of me before that i cant have kids. Really horrible shit was said to me to hurt me. Tho this was in my deviantart days. Sadly it also came from FA. If people have the guts now to mock me for not being able to have kids as a means to anger me or win an argument....you will be put on blast and crucified by the people who do
Hence i made the journal if you guys were okay with it. I got alot of positive feedback. So i want to try making more of it. Because i was hoping people also have a genuene interest in it.
I dont think it be up for comissions anytime soon. Maybe someday i take pregnancy comissions. Only very sparely.
I can understand why it can be a very sensitive. And extremely painful subject for you. And it's really messed up that people would use that as a means to win an argument.
I hope that you will have a better experience with it. And I hope that it will at least help to heal a deep wound that you're still dealing with.
I know it's gonna take a lot out of you. And it's ok to need to take a break. When you're feeling like you're literally breaking in the inside. It really hurts..
It's going to be ok. I, again hope for the best for you dear.
You got this girl.🩵💫
But yeah. Its our first choise. Uteris Transplant sadly will be impossible because it costs as much as a decent house here
And my condolences on having such an option denied to you.
I wish, I could relate and offer some kind of advice that's helped me but, I've got nothing.
Though I think your mind needs to step back for a sec. Her ladyship is also an incredibly talented vore artist
And you're not able to swallow patrons whole, are you? If so, can you teach such a thing?
Honestly, depression is at the reigns and sounds like it's the one killing something you enjoy
We'll need to figure a means of getting it to back down. You suffer, your art suffers and it just feeds the loop
You don't deserve that.
I know, I'm just a random stranger on the internet but, if I can help I'd like to.
And yeah artwork is a huge way for me to vent my frustrations with this.
I feel alot of my trauma and mental problems hold me back from some projects i want to do. Simple comics containing pregnancy or some pieces with it. It just feels weird to me. Then again my autism isnt helping at all eighter. But im seeking help for it. And i hope it works.
I apriciate you took the time to look and comment here. It means people care. Because this isnt easy to announce. I dont want to keep this shit a secret eighter
In doing so, I learned something heartbreaking. And I am saddened I can't help fix it. Though my instincts were correct. This was/is important
I'm honestly not familiar with autism. I've told since I've ADD I've apparently a type of it. I just thought it was me having issues focusing.
An idea came to mind...involving your trauma. Have you considered trying to take the emotion they cause you an put it to paper? Something abstract?
Or possibly even giving it form, shape. Something you can visualize and maybe even shackle?
Please please please never listen to the negative thoughts or give them the time of day. That goes for whatever gatekeeping weirdos that try to deny you or 'show you what you're missing out'. Like I said before, you absolutely deserve to express yourself.
You're gosh damn right they'll be dragged out and humiliated for being so petty by your friends and supporters.
Its hard not to. And i had some horrific shit thrown at me
"Someday people like you are gonna have kids....oh wait"
"Dont shop, adopt"
"If i fuck you hard enough i can get you pregnant" (Not directly at me but women who have this condition)
And a off handed "refrence" Someone made.
And yeah they will be fucking crucified if they try. Then again its also maybe better to not give them attention eighter. Because their scum. Anyone who bullies and put down someone else to mock someone for a disability need to reevaluate where it went wrong with them imo.
I hope someday you can find peace. I'm sorry...
I'm here for your art either way, but you should draw whatever makes you happy.
Even if I only just turned twenty, parenthood is one of few things I genuinely aspire to, which makes it all the more disheartening how discouraged it is in my area. It feels so out of reach. It's been financially and socially stigmatized to a point where I don't think I'll ever find a partner willing to build a family.
For a time, I had a little sister whom of which I acted as a de facto father figure to. We'd stay up late watching Toy Story (our favorite at the time, even got Woody and Jesse dolls for the viewing nights), make her bowls of ice cream, bake cookies together, mess around with our LEGO sets, give her advice and help whenever school or other kids gave her trouble. It was and may forever be the closest I get to being in a sort of father role, and it stings the longer it fades back.
I have nothing much else than to daydream of a family that will likely never exist. So, I turn to fiction, games, and so forth. Not being able to have kids at all would be a final nail in the coffin for me.
If it makes you feel better, or help come to terms with it to either draw it or refrain from doing so, that is entirely your right.
As far as Drawing Pregnancy in your artwork. If it makes you happy and is something you enjoy, Draw it! I will still be here and enjoying your art even if every single picture from now on has a pregnant character in it.
Draw your characters having the life you wish you had, having the kids you wish you could.
I can also understand your mind saying its a bad thing, but in my opinion at least, Your brain is wrong and its a good thing to cling onto something you like or want even if it will never happen. Abandoning your dreams and hopes only leads to sadness and depression.
Medical science is advancing and there are laboratories producing vat grown organs in an attempt to make a procedure where they can take some pressure off the wait list for donor organs. Maybe someday in our lifetimes, having a vat grown Uteris which can be implanted and functional, could be a potential reality... and then being a mother for you afterwards.
And another thing: art (be it hand-drawn, movies or music) lets you express and enjoy things that you may never be able to enjoy yourself, so please don't be dismayed and discouraged by an aspect you yearn for but lack.
And it just feels weird because my brain is fucking stupid and difficult to reason with
Yeah, our brains can be such odd frenemies.
(Also, pregnant Halo is really cute.)
And uhh thanks haha! Yeah i just wanna draw it more to vent some of that frustration i have kinda? Yanno?
If it makes you happy and its not harming you or anyone, then draw it.
sorry, i'm not good with words.