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16 years ago
General
Ohkay. Here we go.
So I don't show people my art. I once did, a long long long time ago, but then a few things happened and I became passionately self-conscious. On top of that, my "work" is... so-so. If it were any good, than I wouldn't bury it as I tend to.
I don't consider myself an artist.
I mean, I've been educated as one, and I draw and sketch pretty much nightly, but it hasn't really gotten me that far. I think one of my big problems is that I'm more or less stagnating on my lack of ambition, and the lack of ambition is actually this self-defense mechanism to defend me from the reality of my lack of focus and discipline, which is based pretty much in my ADD.
If it wasn't for the beer, I don't even think I'd be doing this. I just wouldn't have the courage. On the other hand, I have to.
I have to because nearly every evening I doodle intensely in either a real pad or the GIMP, usually the latter these days, and then either leave it, or just close the window and open another one, over and over again. If I'm going to start achieving things, then this is it. If there ever was a way to tame my nervous energy, to find focus enough to finish something, or do something with more than one step, then this is it. This is how I'll find it.
At this point, I uploaded four things. Did you know that it gives you a notification if somebody faves something you do? It does, you get this little "1F" up there, right after the number for new journals. I now know that. I was flabbergasted, floored and flumuxed. (I was already nervous, confused and tipsy.)
This is it.I'm going to find it. You know. IT.
Let's get this train wreck rolling.
So I don't show people my art. I once did, a long long long time ago, but then a few things happened and I became passionately self-conscious. On top of that, my "work" is... so-so. If it were any good, than I wouldn't bury it as I tend to.
I don't consider myself an artist.
I mean, I've been educated as one, and I draw and sketch pretty much nightly, but it hasn't really gotten me that far. I think one of my big problems is that I'm more or less stagnating on my lack of ambition, and the lack of ambition is actually this self-defense mechanism to defend me from the reality of my lack of focus and discipline, which is based pretty much in my ADD.
If it wasn't for the beer, I don't even think I'd be doing this. I just wouldn't have the courage. On the other hand, I have to.
I have to because nearly every evening I doodle intensely in either a real pad or the GIMP, usually the latter these days, and then either leave it, or just close the window and open another one, over and over again. If I'm going to start achieving things, then this is it. If there ever was a way to tame my nervous energy, to find focus enough to finish something, or do something with more than one step, then this is it. This is how I'll find it.
At this point, I uploaded four things. Did you know that it gives you a notification if somebody faves something you do? It does, you get this little "1F" up there, right after the number for new journals. I now know that. I was flabbergasted, floored and flumuxed. (I was already nervous, confused and tipsy.)
This is it.I'm going to find it. You know. IT.
Let's get this train wreck rolling.
elle_yena
~elleyena
You definitely can't let your self conscious get in the way, you have to keep drawing to become better... like every day! and you know what, if you enjoy it just do it for the simple enjoyment of it.
masstreble
~masstreble
OP
I try. Maybe I got into this so long ago because it's something that I can't easily conquer. Maybe some twisted part of me actually enjoys the struggle and takes delights in that I might lose.
