It’s hard to put into words how I’ve felt these past few months. While I should be happy that it’s my birthday today (along with it being Father’s Day & being able to spend time with mine on it ), I can not lie, I’ve had a sense of melancholy for this one. After my grandmother (dad’s side) passed back in March, there was signs that my other grandmother (mom’s side) was beginning to decline in her health as well. Last week, she passed away, just 3 months after we had laid the first one to rest.

I don’t know how to exactly describe it, but I think both these deaths happening so close to each other, let alone this other one being near my birthday, has really depressed me. Specifically, when it comes to one detail: how it feels like a new era is starting for me. There’s been several issues on my domestic front that has kind of dampened my creativity, to the point where I’ve had to just drastically cut back on the commissions I buy. And these family deaths feel like I’ve just ran into a wall now on even working on character bios or ideas for things I wanted to see with said characters.

I hate to say it, but I think I’m just stuck for now. I’ll still work on things like organizing my characters & writing out bios for them on my Toyhouse, but I can’t say for now what else will happen.