Hello everyone, I hope you are well, as I had promised and as I had pending, I bring you a much more in-depth update of my current status and some extra clarifications.

7 months ago my mental health was greatly affected by a series of situations that led to the loss of my friendship with Lord-kosmos (Cosmo), he was not only a playmate or workmate, he became an important piece of my daily life, so much that despite our strong arguments, the pain and darkness that we both had over us, which I can still verify is unfortunately still present, I continue to adore him with all my heart.

With the desire to try to reach an agreement, I insisted a lot that we talk, but I was denied this possibility, Cosmo made the decision and position to block me on all social networks, without being able to understand, I continued insisting to a point in I hurt myself, as I probably hurt him -sorry, Danny, I didn't mean to harass you, but I can understand if you felt that way-.

Although I can reaffirm again and again that I did not want the situations that occurred to escalate to such a magnitude and I was willing to reach several agreements with him, I know that the lack of emotional capacity and the mental state that afflicts us does not make it convenient for us to currently interact, I am not "A good agent for Danny, just as he is not a good agent for me. But I don't want to cause him more anxieties than he probably has to bear. I still love him very much, despite the fact that his behavior has also been negligent towards me, being forced to experience mourning for the loss of my best friend.

As I have said before, I go to therapy and for 4 months I have been taking psychiatric medication for depression and anxiety, I have a possible diagnosis of Autism (my psychiatrist and psychologist are still evaluating me on this guideline) and also I may have developed Psoriasis due to stress, all of this added to the aggravation of my chronic pain, not only in my back but also in my legs.

By exposing my state of health, I don't intend to victimize myself, excuse my inactivity, or any negligent behavior, I want to be sincere and face the future with my face forward, and although it has been very difficult for me, since I no longer count on who I considered for 15 years to be the person who understood me best, I'm navigating this the best I can with the resources that I have been acquiring.

I'm not a saint, I have never claimed to be one, I have my dark and disconcerting parts because just as I can be very calm, I can also become very harsh, aggressive and self-destructive, which I'm working on in therapy.

I really want to be a better version of myself for those I adore and love, and for myself, starting to learn to love and understand myself. This still costs me a lot, because there are still parts of me that make me consider myself a monster.

Ah- Coming back to the present day regarding work, I have some clarifications that I want to make. I'm working little by little on my Queue list, if I still don't update it or send wips, it is because when I say little by little, I'm going seriously. I admit that I'm VERY SLOW and a perfectionist, apart from technically since about 2-3 months I barely sat down at the computer desk again.

I repeat, if you have doubts, questions and/or comments, don't be afraid to contact me, I'm willing to clarify your uncertainties and offer you agreements with which we are both comfortable, I don't want to continue failing and I hope you can forgive my delay and silence.

The next thing I want to address is about a Journal that Lord-Kosmos (Cosmo) posted on June 27 about his pending work and to avoided to ask me about it. Although I understand your position and can understand your line of thought, it seems incorrect and careless on my part, not to be able to attend to what corresponds to me since I was given payment for my colorist services, for which it is also my responsibility. both to clarify their doubts and to offer them a resolution that is fair and satisfactory for the clients, I would not like them to have a hard time and I don't intend to protect or excuse Cosmo's behavior, but I can imagine that currently he is not completely well and he must have been uncomfortable that I had tried to contact him again because a person wanted to know about his current status.

I understand that you have come to think that I could give some answer, but unfortunately I must admit that I'm even more isolated than you.

As compensation for all this, I can offer you either to work on an outfit for the character of your choice (you will be given the base and the right to make outfits over it) or give you a bust or Half body of the character you want, that's all what I can offer you at the moment. Really forgive me for not having more resources or helping Cosmo reimburse you. All the money I earn has gone to my therapies, medications and taking care of my home.

You can contact me by notes or Discord, my username is: grimothygrizzly, to reach an agreement I would only ask you:

1) The username with which you contacted
2) A screenshot of the message that details the information of your commission
3) and the payment confirmation of both, yours and Cosmo, this with the purpose that both, you and I, have fair and clean treatment.

If you don't want anything from me, you can ignore this journal, I thank you very much for your attention and reading.

I'm sorry for causing inconvenience or ruining Cosmo's day, it was not my intention, although if I wanted to chat with him for professional and personal reasons, I know very well and I was also reminded, that currently it is not the best thing for my mental health.

He is fine without me and I must learn to be fine with myself.

Once again, my sincere apologies to all our clients and people who trusted us, I hope that both Danny and I can get through all of this.

If you got this far, thank you very much for reading me.