Technical Venting.
a year ago
Something is wrong with my ipad (or apple pencil) so i can't draw right now.
I can't express how anxious and ANGRY this makes me. Besides needing the thing for my job on monday, i feel existential dread when i'm unable to use my main art tool in general. Don't know if anybody can relate, but art and drawing is my whole -thing- and not being able to do it is like ... what am i even awake for?! (doesn't matter if the art is good or not. that has nothing to do with it...)
I mean i can use pencils and traditional stuff, but it's not quite the same (and I can't do my very digital illustration job with it...which has a deadline next week. ah. cool.)
Uhhh. I'm going to bed.
I can't express how anxious and ANGRY this makes me. Besides needing the thing for my job on monday, i feel existential dread when i'm unable to use my main art tool in general. Don't know if anybody can relate, but art and drawing is my whole -thing- and not being able to do it is like ... what am i even awake for?! (doesn't matter if the art is good or not. that has nothing to do with it...)
I mean i can use pencils and traditional stuff, but it's not quite the same (and I can't do my very digital illustration job with it...which has a deadline next week. ah. cool.)
Uhhh. I'm going to bed.
FA+

"Exsitential dread" when an art tool breaks like that
I had to bring away two Cintiqs and the one i got now is a huge gable because the warranty is gone if this one breaks
I cried because i legit a piece of me fucking died. And now my PC is dying
The other thing about it is because it can be a part of your income too and it hurts in more way than one.
So yeah i feel this because i didnt had an explaination for people what i felt when my PC or my Cintiq died.
I dont think people would help you out paying for a new ipad.
Now im curious. Because im thinking of getting an ipad to draw on. Because a Cintiq is fucking chonky. And id love to sit next to my fiancee drawing on the couch.
What do you reccomend?
I've been stuck in a strange rut of anxiety keeping me from doing most art and a lot of it is trauma related - like being afraid to draw because they might still be stalking me and secretly criticizing my art harshly as if i were a professional when i have always infact, been a hobbyist - idk if it's quite the same? but i do dearly wish to draw it's just.... paralyzed by fear. :x I'm still constantly studying life and things and ways to apply it to my art, just not drawing and sharing due to that paralyzing fear u_u
anyhoo -
yee i rly hope u get a replacement or something even better! <3
Although, I prefer a screenless tablet, I understand everyone is different. Good luck, I hope it gets better for you soon! ;o;