Hey all.

I know I don't post at all, but I think with the current events within the fandom, I should put my feelings out, as I find myself struggling with the emotions I feel, or lack there of.

Ill be straight up. I never knew Dragoneer. I never talked with him, never knew him, really only knew of him, and his position of this website, even if i learned it through jokes and memes. It still doesn't diminish the impact he had on the furry fandom, creating the very website I'm typing out this journal on.

My emotions are weird, but pretty straight-forward about this. I don't feel too upset? Which, given the position, influence, and circumstances of Dragoneer, I feel I should be more, WAY more upset than I do, but I don't. Of course I'm upset at the American Healthcare system, it's a for-profit network prioritizing money over people, but I'm not as upset as I feel I should be with Dragoneer's passing. It could be that I never knew him personally enough to feel such a strong emotion, or something else. I feel sorry for everyone who is mourning his passing, and I'm sure there will be a point where I will mourn a bit more strongly, but I don't know if I will in the near future, or in the far future.

I do hope everyone who has been hurt by the passing of Dragoneer takes their time to mourn the loss, and come out stronger the other side.