Yesterday I attended anthrocon, a Pittsburgh furry convention (which im sure you all my know), and it was pretty fun for the most part. I was in my first game tournament, played a custom cards against humanity deck, and a bunch more stuff. The reason I say for the most part is because...well, I saw someone there that doesnt like me all tbat much...and for a good reason. It was  PanScolipede . I knew him from sneaking my way into a group when I was younger, and I also convinced him to rp with me. A week later or so, he says he is attending anthrocon (this was last year), and I was too. I did reveal my age to him, and well...it hit the fan for me. He blocked me on telegram, and on discord when I got one and joined a group. He didnt want any part of me, so when I saw him at AC, i started to panic, hoping he wouldnt see my badge(i was lucky i didnt bring my bigger badge of my sona). I was scared what he would do if he did notice it was me. I had a 15 minute panic attack that had an after shake for about an hour. I couldnt play games, i couldnt sit still, i just couldnt do that stuff because I was scared at any moment he could come from somewhere and notice me. I didnt wanna anger or upset him. If he saw me...i dont know what could've happen...it wasnt until I was playing the Cards against Humanity deck when I was able to settle down a bit at The Zoo. I just dont know what would've happened.

Edit: My intentions on writing this is to show out my feelings, not to make him seem bad. All i was feeling was fright. I was uncertain about how he would react. Pan is a great dude. He is a very nice person for those that he knows. I did something I shouldn't have done, and I got my punishment, and I still am.