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Somewhat Back? I am not sure
a year ago
Hello! it's been 4 years since I been active on this account and I am aware I tried moving on to other places. I have said I can't really connect to the community. But.. after 4 years maybe I will give it another go this time around. I had lot things going on to me ever since I tried moving to places. Some of it was good while others went horribly wrong over the years. It's been quite a journey through it. All I can tell you is I been doing well! Been taking care of myself and trying to move pass lot things. I found lot about myself (Such as well... who knew I'd become trans? Crazy right? besides that I found out I was Ace and other things... pretty much queer xD) but also went through the worst moments of life. (I am not gonna go into it since it's something that pains me till this day.) But after those moments hit me hard I end up coming back from them as a fresh new person with lot of healing and understanding of one's psyche. Again it's been quite journey through it. But yeah... I been struggling with mental health related but with the help I been receiving it's been going through long way. I still struggle with painful memories I had to go through in those traumatic moments but I try my best to pull through. It's thing I wish I done sooner then letting it build up over the years but after... I experience traumatic moment that broke my mind. It hit me like truck and I had to realized there is lot I need to work on. (that moment opened lot of older wounds I thought they were healed but the holes seems to got bigger.) With the help I receive it's been helping me lot move forward. I hope everyone is doing alright, I am very aware how tough things are. I may post here and there but it won't be consistent since I been just not keeping up with the social media stuff. Plus I don't do lot of full artwork as I used.on those traumatic moments I do have moments of nightmares and my brain being split (Not really but... more mental I guess) it's hard to explain but I won't get into depth apong it. But you can say I may have.. alter or two that formed of it. You may see them post some art or interact in the comments. "Hello! Since the host has mention about us... I guess I will introduce myself! Names Spade! I am one of alters that has been helping Unknown to heal from their trauma and co-host. It's been difficult but me and another have been doing our best to move forward past this.We been pretty new to this but it taking us lot time to adjust on it. It maybe difficult to some to adjust to us being around but we do what we can to aid. If you got any questions about us we will be happy to answer. I only came out as mention and well I don't mind showing some my art here. But yeah to some It maybe awkward but it's pleasuring seeing you guys here. We only came out with the consent with the host to speak. Or at least I did. But regardless Hopefully everyone is having nice day." - ♠️ I also did some cleaning of my older artwork since holds painful memories with person who caused me trauma. I didn't want to be reminded of him when I come back here. But all my older artwork is saved, however I want to start fresh and move on. Again I appreciate it and thank you. My characters shown on here still exist! I just don't use them anymore. But every so often I will doodle them. So they haven't been forgotten as well. Only artwork I am keeping up is memorial picture.