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I'm probably mostly done doing game streams.
a year ago
At the very least I'm not going to announce them anywhere anymore. If you're interested in watching me play something, your best bet is to follow me on twitch and set your alerts to notify you if I go live. If you skip the rest of this journal then that should be the primary takeaway.
I suspect some people may be wondering why this is happening. The long and short of it is the engagement has been kind of depressing many days. I don't stream games to play games so much as I want to socialize with friends and acquaintances. If next to nobody shows up, or worse, people announce they show up and don't engage at all, the whole exercise just ends up feeling pathetic. It's like if you try to throw a party and two people show up. That's a failed party. There's nobody to blame but myself. Either the games I play are too niche or I'm just not very engaging or some combination of other factors. Whatever it is, if I just stream with no expectation of anybody showing up, assuming I stream at all anymore, I think I'll be less likely to be frustrated or depressed by poor turnout and/or engagement with the chat. This isn't an income source for me. I did game streams with the intent of having fun with others. That fun has been pretty inconsistent for a while now.
I'll say this much, a piece of advice for absolutely everybody who has ever said "I don't really have anything to add". Here's a tip. If you ever want to be part of a conversation but don't feel like you can contribute to it, there's a very easy way to turn that around. All you have to do is ask questions. Shocker, but people tend to be enthusiastic about the various things they're knowledgeable about and enjoy discussing. That usually means they're excited to share more about those things to people who are curious and want to know more. Feel you can't contribute? Ask stuff! Enthusiasts will often leap at a chance to share! But be at least somewhat genuine in the curiosity. Ask honest questions. Apathetic questions are easy to feel and if you aren't invested enough in the whole interacting with people thing to actually give enough of a damn to learn more about the conversation, are you really all that interested in the interaction to begin with? Just a side thing I wanted to address because WAY too often I've tried to get people talking in my chats only to be replied to with "I don't really have anything to add".
I suspect some people may be wondering why this is happening. The long and short of it is the engagement has been kind of depressing many days. I don't stream games to play games so much as I want to socialize with friends and acquaintances. If next to nobody shows up, or worse, people announce they show up and don't engage at all, the whole exercise just ends up feeling pathetic. It's like if you try to throw a party and two people show up. That's a failed party. There's nobody to blame but myself. Either the games I play are too niche or I'm just not very engaging or some combination of other factors. Whatever it is, if I just stream with no expectation of anybody showing up, assuming I stream at all anymore, I think I'll be less likely to be frustrated or depressed by poor turnout and/or engagement with the chat. This isn't an income source for me. I did game streams with the intent of having fun with others. That fun has been pretty inconsistent for a while now.
I'll say this much, a piece of advice for absolutely everybody who has ever said "I don't really have anything to add". Here's a tip. If you ever want to be part of a conversation but don't feel like you can contribute to it, there's a very easy way to turn that around. All you have to do is ask questions. Shocker, but people tend to be enthusiastic about the various things they're knowledgeable about and enjoy discussing. That usually means they're excited to share more about those things to people who are curious and want to know more. Feel you can't contribute? Ask stuff! Enthusiasts will often leap at a chance to share! But be at least somewhat genuine in the curiosity. Ask honest questions. Apathetic questions are easy to feel and if you aren't invested enough in the whole interacting with people thing to actually give enough of a damn to learn more about the conversation, are you really all that interested in the interaction to begin with? Just a side thing I wanted to address because WAY too often I've tried to get people talking in my chats only to be replied to with "I don't really have anything to add".
I hope I’ll be able to join streams even more next month.
That being said, I hope you can find more entertainment in other things and streaming with less pressure from now on.
I tried two storytelling streams and the first one did well, and everyone said they really enjoyed it. When I did the second, literally nobody showed up... XP