No matter what happens, we're here for you.

Thank you...

It's okay to be anxious and to post out for help, hon. We want to know that you're going to be okay.

*hugs you as tightly as possible*

No worries, it's the best time to vent. I stay up all night sometimes worrying about landing in asimilar situation.
You might want to consider contacting social services for help, the phone thing is a bitch and there are a lot of walls that start popping up at the low end of things. You have to persevere, build up and keep hope that things will get better. I hope they do for you.

I hope so too... Panic attacks are no fun at all...