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2 longass months (hand and chemo updates)
a year ago
FINALLY got my grandpa on chemo after so many fucking tests, pre-ops, biopsies, PET scans and shit just soooo much driving into New Orleans, and my fracture is healing well enough so I'm able to draw more stably again without the carpal tunnel-y feeling shit. Just can't ball up a fist anymore but that's the least of my worries.
I will say even with the silver linings here, I'm ashamed of the rest of my family for being absent for these past couple months while I've orchestrated everything in terms of getting my pa to and from the hospitals, all these long drives and phone calls with doctors, nurses and insurance shit--the fact that it's all been on me to take care of has been stressful.
I WANT to be angry about earlier because my uncle opted to drive to the hospital (it's a 2 hour drive from here) today just to check on my pa before he's discharged next week from his first chemo session, because he looked at me and went "What, why aren't you going?"
I'm a human, I'm tired, and I've been losing work because of a fractured hand and spending most of my time taking care of grown-ass people. I'm far from done with this.
May the BEST possible luck roll over us cos lately I've been very doubtful of any real positivity--I just wanna get back to content creation because that keeps me grounded and happy to share with everyone, even if it is just shitty fuckin anthro porn. Yeah, if my family knew I'm sure they're reaaaaal proud of what I've done with my bachelor's degree, hahaha.
Life's funny, God's got a sense of humor alright. Should do standup
I will say even with the silver linings here, I'm ashamed of the rest of my family for being absent for these past couple months while I've orchestrated everything in terms of getting my pa to and from the hospitals, all these long drives and phone calls with doctors, nurses and insurance shit--the fact that it's all been on me to take care of has been stressful.
I WANT to be angry about earlier because my uncle opted to drive to the hospital (it's a 2 hour drive from here) today just to check on my pa before he's discharged next week from his first chemo session, because he looked at me and went "What, why aren't you going?"
I'm a human, I'm tired, and I've been losing work because of a fractured hand and spending most of my time taking care of grown-ass people. I'm far from done with this.
May the BEST possible luck roll over us cos lately I've been very doubtful of any real positivity--I just wanna get back to content creation because that keeps me grounded and happy to share with everyone, even if it is just shitty fuckin anthro porn. Yeah, if my family knew I'm sure they're reaaaaal proud of what I've done with my bachelor's degree, hahaha.
Life's funny, God's got a sense of humor alright. Should do standup
Take care of yourself and keep yourself moving, huh? Your health and what YOU want matters too, as hard as that is to fathom when you've been the caretaker your whole life. I hope everything starts gettin' better for you soon.
Best of wishes to y'all as well
My life is starting to spiral and the best option for me is the cruelest one to take. It is not one that is strictly deserved, so I hesitate.
It's only gonna get worse though.
Best of luck to you, as always. You clearly need it.
hoping the best for y'all as well.
Quite the dance.
I appreciate it.
Keep being yourself and be proud of all the good you’ve accomplished.
You’ve prioritized others before yourself many times, but after you overcome these current obstacles, you need to learn to care more for yourself and to respect yourself more.
my own ma told me earlier that the only way i'd be "getting out to do whatever i wanted" was if she blew her brains out
so i proceeded to get shitfaced drunk and i plan on doing that once again when i'm back from using my body as their slave conduit to get them from point A to B, they're all horrible, and I am horrible as well.
You art has given me a smile and some happiness when things weren't good for me. You deserve some solace and success.