I don't know who I would be without  forest-wolf /  spottedsqueak . He bumped into me when I was in that vulnerable and sensitive time of my life. I was just finally starting to get an idea of who I was. Such an awkward mess I was, so young, immature, absolutely clueless thanks to 10 years of hard time in catholic school, but he still reached out. The connection was instant, he was a joy to be around and I got to spend several years and countless nights with him. I don't know if I would be here without him gracing my life, he was my best friend and I loved him deeply. His endless patience, his kindness, generosity, empathy...he made me want to be a better person, the best possible version of myself. He inspired me, encouraged me, supported me, and now he is gone. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want him to be happy...he deserved better. That said, he used his time here to be something positive, to be someone wonderful, and the world is a better and brighter place for getting to have him here even if it was cut short.

Wuffles, I love you so much. This grief is overwhelming, the gravity of it makes it so I can barely crawl let alone stand. You did so much for so many people, and now you are at rest. I will keep you in my heart, I will try my best to make you proud. I could never forget you, I just wish I could see you one last time.

Thank you for everything.